i hate working
so today i am fighting with dan, its insane and i hate it. and its ruined my entire day. i stopped by the stand just to say hi cuz i was with deena, and i was looking forward to seeing them both just informally outside of work. when we start to discuss the cleanliness of our stand and ths stupid issues that we have turned into some huge thing about how i dont just tell people what they have to do, or that i expect to much or that i make them fel like they arent doing things right or something. and that they dont want to be grouped in as one of the lazy people at the stand and how me and another manager allways call our boss and tell on people little mishaps. the thing is i dont call my boss unless i really have a good reason or problems have been persisting for quite a while, i try to work everything out and handle it on my ow, but no one listens to me, i cant folow everyone around all the time babysitting every move that one of the employees makes. i work two jobs and i cant handle trying to work my regular jobs plus redoing theirs. i dont make enough money for all the work i have to do and all the shit i have to go through. people have responsibility at the stand and when there are only 6 people who work somewhere we need teamwork and right now theres not a lot of teamwork, its them and then its me. and im not saying that i do everything (because plenty of people get their work done i guess it s just a quality control thing we need) but i have to pick up the slack. and thats ok i am a manager i understand that that comes with the title sometimes i have to do a little extra here and there and i am the responsible party. however, it does not mean that people can abuse the fact that i work hard. i make sure to clean things and i get things done that other people dont do. so i guess i am just mad that they think that i am too anal about things, i get what has to be done and i think if i am the one who has to do it i can be as damn anal about it as i want. and heres the thing im not even that bad about it, i dont care if you dont clean one of the shelves i dont care if there s little dough stuck on the floor. i dont mind if there is some sugar around in places the things that i care about are the obvious issues. dishes are clean and put away neatly, the stand looks orderly, the people who are resposible for certain duties do them --i.e. the sunday morning manager cleans the floor mats and mops the kitchen floors. at shift cnage the manager stocks the stand so that the nite shift can flow easily and when everything is cleaned there is no residue especially on sundays when we will be closed for the entire week until friday. is that too much to ask? i didnt think so but apparently everyone is pissed because i tell our boss an di expect so much and dont give them any credit i never did any of that and thast crap. oh but then dan will call later and ask me if i am upset. yes i am upset you made me seem like a horrible horrible manager and you even said that at fairs sometimes i dont get everything clean, yes i do. i clean that place, even my boss says who laura dont buff the chrome off there--that means it is noticably clean so excuse me but i pull my weight and then some. and uh i am just pissed that no one listens to me at work i am supposed to be the manager and no one cares what i have to say. i will tell you if you arent doing something right i wont be bitchy about it i will just let you know and tell you to work on it but they either take it to harshly or they dont listen at all and arejust like yea yea. i duno but dan made me seem like i was pretty dumb and i just felt bad afetrwards and then when he called he alwasy makes me feel like i amde him the victim and that it wasnt me but no i shouldnt be upset because we are friends first and thats important. i just dont know. uh its horrible.