ThE pRaYeR
i went to church this morning... because it was a special one... my aunt (the one w/cancer) went down the isle, and then it was soo amazing... the whole entire church went down there with her, and we all put our hands on her and prayed over her... we prayed that she would be okay, so she can live a long life and raise her twins and her son... it was sad, i cried like a baby... i dont know if i could handle another death of one i really care about... so i really hope that she lives...
i do remember that when my cousin jennifer was still alive, and when we found out she had cancer, they did the same thing, and when we found out that there was nothing that anyone could do to keep her alive, that was a sad ass prayer, i cried for like weeks, you know... how are you supposed to deal with having to watch someone you love so much dying right in front of your eyes? i dont know what's worse, watching someone dying or just someone dying just like that... you know... i dont know...
but anyways, i got a psychologist appt. tomorrow at 10am... i think that is a good idea, so i have someone professionaly to talk to... maybe he can give me some advice to get these nightmares out of my head... cause that would help me sleep better...
i do remember that when my cousin jennifer was still alive, and when we found out she had cancer, they did the same thing, and when we found out that there was nothing that anyone could do to keep her alive, that was a sad ass prayer, i cried for like weeks, you know... how are you supposed to deal with having to watch someone you love so much dying right in front of your eyes? i dont know what's worse, watching someone dying or just someone dying just like that... you know... i dont know...
but anyways, i got a psychologist appt. tomorrow at 10am... i think that is a good idea, so i have someone professionaly to talk to... maybe he can give me some advice to get these nightmares out of my head... cause that would help me sleep better...