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What happens when u cant tell the closest people 2 you what you are planning or thinking because u are so afraid of what they will say or do…It just stayz inside of u …b4 all u felt was emptiness…but now the emptiness iz being filled with sadness, depression and loneliness. You feel u have no one 2 turn 2, 2 trust, 2 love, so you turn 2 urself, but u soon realize turning 2 urself and no one else iz whatz causing these feelingz…so u start 2 think about pain, death, and suicide…thinking itz the best way out.
The cutz grow longer n deeper each time u slide the razor across ur skin…Maybe becuz each time u are getting braver, daring 2 bring urself that much closer 2 death, still not knowing if death iz truly what u want.
You know there r ppl who love and care about u…but it doeznt show…becuz they cannot see the pain…they cannot feel the pain…they do not know the pain…all they can see r the scarz and cutz and they wonder y u do this…they get mad at u for doing it…which makez u wanna do it more, u hate that no one can know how u feel, u try 2 explain it but all failz and u r left alone w/ ur feelingz, and cutting iz ur onli way out… u kno they hate it when u cut… but…they do not understand the purpose…the pleasure…the relief……
The cutz grow longer n deeper each time u slide the razor across ur skin…Maybe becuz each time u are getting braver, daring 2 bring urself that much closer 2 death, still not knowing if death iz truly what u want.
You know there r ppl who love and care about u…but it doeznt show…becuz they cannot see the pain…they cannot feel the pain…they do not know the pain…all they can see r the scarz and cutz and they wonder y u do this…they get mad at u for doing it…which makez u wanna do it more, u hate that no one can know how u feel, u try 2 explain it but all failz and u r left alone w/ ur feelingz, and cutting iz ur onli way out… u kno they hate it when u cut… but…they do not understand the purpose…the pleasure…the relief……