and we both know, we've made mistakes, is that any reason to give up on me
i am so fucking tired. didn't get to bed til 3 sumthin last night, the alarm went off at 5 sumthin, i snoozed for 2 hrs til amy called my cell, which in case you ever need to know, is the only way to get me out of bed in the morning, and i picked her up and bounced to a.c. they were having wheel of fortune auditions, we didn't make it. i decided since we were there i might as well shoot craps, lost. i tried my hand at black jack...$25 minimum bet is bullshit. then the slots, i lost a total of $85 in maybe 15-20 minutes...GAY! we bounced, i put $100 in the bank just like i had planned b/c i don't feel accomplished until i put at least a hundred ballies in the bank whenever i get paid. so i did that, came home to take a nap and a shower instead nicole asked me to go shopping w. her and so i did. i went to the show for .5 seconds, like i didn't even get outta my car and they all came out and said to meet them at dynasty. nikki's freind brandy came, she is a nice girl, i like her. i feel like shit. i realized that i smoke about a pk. of cigarettes a day, which is in manda's words, "reCOCKulous." i remember when a pk. would last me like a month, and then like 2 weeks, then maybe a week, and it kept gettin worse and worse. i will not go above a pk. a day, i am gonna try and cut down. also, today i decided i am going to write to donald trump and find out all about the business world from his perspective and if he doesn't respond i am suing that motherfucker for corrupting a minor(me) and being personally responsible for my gambling problem. yea, no a.c. for me for awhile, i def. can't help myself when i get in there, at least i stop b4 it goes too far. i mean $85 isn't anything to some ppl there, but they're grown ups, to a 17 yr. old kid who works part time that's a lotta money to throw away on NOTHING! i am sooo tired and i need to sleep. luckily i don't have work until 5 tomorrow so i can sleep all day and hopefully clean my room cuz it is a hot mess and a half. oh also, pj rules at life cuz he got me a sticker outta one of those little machine jauns at the diner:)! that shit made my night. k, i need sleep...goodnight