lamelamelame.
Ok so im aloud one complaining every once and awile I decided. Lately some things have been wicked lame but I've just been letting them go. Ok so one of my friends has been sucky lately and wicked weird to me. We hardly talk anymore and all we seem to do is talk about eachother like we dont even like eachother. It doesnt seem right to me at all. And I miss the way we used to be. I miss her. So thats sorta a bummer you culd say. Besides that boys are lame. I hate letting them down and messing up and I hate when stupid boys call you like a zillion times and piss you off. It needs to stopp. Besides that boys confuzzel me too much and are too complicated. I still hate feelings and emotion to do with boys for the moment so just know with me there isnt anything for right now because I wouldent let myself have it. People are making me feel like shit as well. Saying that I eff things up. In fact Im trying to take a break from some of my favorite boys for a bit so I wont be able to let anyone down for awile or mess anything up. I'll give them a break from me lets just say. Its not nessisarily what I want but I can tell it would help and I know that secretly someone wants it because they yea....the whole thing still seems stupid to me when its all spread out but Im tired of feeling badd for hanging out with my best friends and worrying about how to act. And you know what else is lame? How we still are hardly considered friends. We've never actually been able to be just friends and lately it just seems like we hate eachother or are fighting. I'd really like to just be friends. And I know to him that me and a friend wouldent mean much. But all Im asking is to hang out every once and awile mabey a phone call to see how Im doin. Anything to show you care like you pretend you actually do. Im being dramatic and stupid and I'm over it and back to being fine but I had to get it all out. But still....BRACES OFF TOMORROW!!!!! Hang out with me this weeeeekend kiddos, who wants to get some poker goin?