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[xmakemeoverx]

Well last night was wicked sad ..i didnt sleep at all n i was jus in a wicked sad mood for some reason ..n i was thinking about everything all night ..i was thinking abt charlie n that whole thing obviously but i just thought a lot about 6th grade ..like it was soo amazing ..n i really knew who i was n what i wanted to be n i was really happy n i knew who my best friends were ..n it makes me wonder whatever happen to all that n how a stupid desicion can change everything ..i really miss brian mcmahon, me n him were bffeaeae n we had been that ever since elementary school n we were jus good friends n we talked abt everything n now we never talk ..n i really miss like courtney n natalie cause they were my bestfriends in 6th n we still talk n we r still close but its just different, n kaitlyn masionis was my all time best friend ever since we were like babies but we started hanging out wit different ppl n now we barely talk ..and i was thinking abt all my old boyfriends n everything n how i was obsessed wit greg madden =P n how me n him were good friends ..and alex piscia but me n him r still close n i hope it stays like that ..but its weird how you can be in a moment n feel like nothing will ever change n that ur gona stay like this forever but then it does end up changing n nothings ever the same ..and how you can think a desicion you make will turn out to be alright, but things dont ajust n you hit rock bottom with nothing ..and im not saying the people in my life now suck cause they dont n im thankfull for everyone of my friends like its just thinking about how if you could go back and erase all the mistake you wanted how different everything would be right now ..n if that could happen i probably wouldnt be writing this

and now i feel pretty akward ..and i feel like hanging out wit brian n kaitlyn like we used to always do ..