can't
wow... i really don't want to do this anymore. seriously, life just sucks. can something just go right... can something good happen to me?
Why is life so hard, like... why can't there be some easy part. So that maybe I can for once want to live and stay here? Seriously, I need something good to happen. No more getting hurt by people, no more getting in little accidents and spraining something. No more believing that we are going to get out of this hell whole. No more coming home with no power or cable or phone. No more missing out on something because of lack of money. No more... no more... just gosh please let something good happen! I can't deal with this anymore, I just want to like, end it. But I can't... then what I am supposed to do. Go through the rest of this life misserable, wishing that I hadn't missed out on something or that I could actually trust someone and love someone and let them love me back. I get that it's just, not in my cards right now. But why not some happieness... PLEASE. Something, I don't want to go back... I don't want to be the person I was before.
I wish I didn't have so much to complain about. And I wish you were here.
Why is life so hard, like... why can't there be some easy part. So that maybe I can for once want to live and stay here? Seriously, I need something good to happen. No more getting hurt by people, no more getting in little accidents and spraining something. No more believing that we are going to get out of this hell whole. No more coming home with no power or cable or phone. No more missing out on something because of lack of money. No more... no more... just gosh please let something good happen! I can't deal with this anymore, I just want to like, end it. But I can't... then what I am supposed to do. Go through the rest of this life misserable, wishing that I hadn't missed out on something or that I could actually trust someone and love someone and let them love me back. I get that it's just, not in my cards right now. But why not some happieness... PLEASE. Something, I don't want to go back... I don't want to be the person I was before.
I wish I didn't have so much to complain about. And I wish you were here.