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[xmajkutdiesx]

So I have come to a chill conclusion to my situation regarding drugs. I have realized that all drugs, even pot, are good in moderation. I knew this about everything else but for me personally, I'm through with the complete stoner phase of my deal with pot. I don't want to do it all day everyday, and have that be a huge priority. If I go a few days without smoking, save money, and then smoke an amount smaller than what I usually would smoke, I will get ripped. And I appreciate it so much more like that. Smoking so much, coupled with my stupid over-abuse of other drugs, has definitely "perma-stoned" my ass. I don't want to not think about anything when I'm sober, that's for smoking a blunt and taking bong rips. The worse thing I did was binge on dextromethorphan, which I definitely have not had any desire to fuck with anymore. A drug that pulls your mind out of your body should not be used as much as ANY other drug... you can have a few nice strongs trip and that should be enough for a long time. To anyone doing dxm once a day, even once a week, chill the fuck out. Especially if you do anything besides JUST dxm (coricidin; anything cough AND cold), you're fucking yourself up. No drug that makes you trip should be used in excess amounts, especially disassociatives. It's taken me a long time to undo the distance between my fucking mind and body. I guess I kind of got off point, but basically what I'm saying is that I'm done with getting fucked up everyday; if you can't go a day without using a drug, no matter how harmless or chill it may be, then that fucking sucks. I was like that, but I don't have to do that anymore. A life of repetition is boring, and drugs can't make you happy - you have to be happy independently for it to work out. I'm not talking shit about drugs, which I think to be one of the greatest things ever on this earth, but I don't want to do shit just to get "fucked up" anymore. Well, not as often...haha. The only thing I want to get fucked up from is alcohol. You know I'm still going to do drugs, it's in my lifestyle...it's something I see as important to my perception of life, but for me to appreciate these things I do them with much less frequency. This upcoming night will be my last night of getting straight bent for a while, but I have to do it and I don't mind... cuz it's August 12th.

By the way, that means I'm seventeen now... but what the hell is so important about a birthday anyway?