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so... Been working a shit ton... less hours nxt week... only 23hrs... pretty lame...
Matt left 4 colorado last wednesday... he told me last night that he MIGHT b home on saturday night... they have worked 10 days straight now... and he still has over 1000 points 2 do b4 he can come home... but he said that every1 out there smokes!!! lol good thing 4 him hahaha... and i guess my dad told me my only cousin lives about 50 miles away frum where they r wrkn in CO how crazy is that... o and not 2 mention that the day Matt left... I get a call frum my dad sayn that my G-pa died... It was heart failure... nothing doctors could have done even if he didnt die on b4 he made it there... came home 4 lunch and went in the back bedroom and his heart stopped... dad called ambulance n he died about halfway 2 the hospital... but my aunt marcy came in frum seattle and they moved my gpa frum the morgue 2 a private room on the top floor just so my aunt and dad could c him n talk 2 him... they picked him up thursday night 2 get him cremated... my dad thinks that my gpa knew what was goin on because my dad found cash in his dresser and the safe w/ his will in it was unlocked... Im goin back down 2 san marcos 2morrow w/ elyse 2 c my mom n aunt cuz when i went down there saturday my mom was still in houston... she left wednesday 2 go 2 her side of the fams reuinion... crazy how everything happens at the same time... so unfair... gunna b atlease another week b4 they get the ashes bak...
i started a credit account so i can have history that will help when me n matt refinance the house we r gunna buy down the line... found out the same guy that stole my ss# twice b4 used it again... loan broker said matt has no credit history so they wnt give us a loan... gotta wait till oct 2 try again... n since i have absolutely no credit i cant even b cosigner :( I want a house so bad... Me n Dawn have been getting along just fine... I just want 2 b able 2 say "this is MY house n u play by my rules... u dnt like it... GET THE FUCK OUT" lol I want the power 2 say who can come over at what time... n then at the same time have room mates 2 pay my mortage hahaha... no seriously roommates r a help... need 2 find a new job once we find a house... I want 2 keep my morning job but i need more stable hrs... n more fukn money... my team at sears practically runs the whole store... n min wage is deff not enough... lol... i dnt really want 2 go bak 2 waitressing cuz of the night hours but I made a shit ton more money... but no1 is hiring cuz of our shitty economy... life is just passing by and there is nothing i can do about it... Matt's birthday is in 2 weeks... I dnt have anything 4 him... I feel like such a loser... n 2 top it off I swear I've gained 5lbs since he's been gone... i was 113 when I went 2 the doc last... n i just feel so grose... I feel like the world is crashing down on me n its stupid because I have nothing that is really that bad (othr than my gpa but he's w/ my gma now up in heaven watchn ovr) Im such a fucking drama queen... so lame
Matt left 4 colorado last wednesday... he told me last night that he MIGHT b home on saturday night... they have worked 10 days straight now... and he still has over 1000 points 2 do b4 he can come home... but he said that every1 out there smokes!!! lol good thing 4 him hahaha... and i guess my dad told me my only cousin lives about 50 miles away frum where they r wrkn in CO how crazy is that... o and not 2 mention that the day Matt left... I get a call frum my dad sayn that my G-pa died... It was heart failure... nothing doctors could have done even if he didnt die on b4 he made it there... came home 4 lunch and went in the back bedroom and his heart stopped... dad called ambulance n he died about halfway 2 the hospital... but my aunt marcy came in frum seattle and they moved my gpa frum the morgue 2 a private room on the top floor just so my aunt and dad could c him n talk 2 him... they picked him up thursday night 2 get him cremated... my dad thinks that my gpa knew what was goin on because my dad found cash in his dresser and the safe w/ his will in it was unlocked... Im goin back down 2 san marcos 2morrow w/ elyse 2 c my mom n aunt cuz when i went down there saturday my mom was still in houston... she left wednesday 2 go 2 her side of the fams reuinion... crazy how everything happens at the same time... so unfair... gunna b atlease another week b4 they get the ashes bak...
i started a credit account so i can have history that will help when me n matt refinance the house we r gunna buy down the line... found out the same guy that stole my ss# twice b4 used it again... loan broker said matt has no credit history so they wnt give us a loan... gotta wait till oct 2 try again... n since i have absolutely no credit i cant even b cosigner :( I want a house so bad... Me n Dawn have been getting along just fine... I just want 2 b able 2 say "this is MY house n u play by my rules... u dnt like it... GET THE FUCK OUT" lol I want the power 2 say who can come over at what time... n then at the same time have room mates 2 pay my mortage hahaha... no seriously roommates r a help... need 2 find a new job once we find a house... I want 2 keep my morning job but i need more stable hrs... n more fukn money... my team at sears practically runs the whole store... n min wage is deff not enough... lol... i dnt really want 2 go bak 2 waitressing cuz of the night hours but I made a shit ton more money... but no1 is hiring cuz of our shitty economy... life is just passing by and there is nothing i can do about it... Matt's birthday is in 2 weeks... I dnt have anything 4 him... I feel like such a loser... n 2 top it off I swear I've gained 5lbs since he's been gone... i was 113 when I went 2 the doc last... n i just feel so grose... I feel like the world is crashing down on me n its stupid because I have nothing that is really that bad (othr than my gpa but he's w/ my gma now up in heaven watchn ovr) Im such a fucking drama queen... so lame