she listens to mozart while she does tae bo, yeah, dont listen to that song, its not good
-boys
-lame sister
ok, so after lessons, im bike to quikcheck to get something to drink... and i see these kinda cute boys there, i dont know, ugh, i have nooooooooooo people skill what so ever, they are skateboarding and i want to say hi to them without looking like a dork... but... i just endup going in and not saying anything... first of all, i didnt look so good, i looked like a big black dildo (with my coat). and you couldnt tell i was a girl... but... i just really should have talked to them. i'm really bad at flirting with SOME people... i dont know its weird, i'm also bad at realationships... i have become antisocial... in a way... i sometimes think about the embarasing moments when i went out with colin or just stupid times i act like a retard or how immature i can be sometimes and i want to stab myself, and sometimes i cant think of things to talk about because its really hard hah... so yeah... thats why things weren't working out. AND today i give carson back his sketch book and he really liked my page... i wanted to talk to him more, he seemed really happy, maybe it was the drugs, i cant tell but im lame so whatever... why am i bringing myself down so much?! well, he was really phyched about my page.
i told my sister about the band im in, its not so good yet but its pretty good considering we only had one pratice. and she knows we taped it but she wanted to listen to it and i said not yet, its horrible, and i dont know what im signing because i was just improvising... and i just sound like a dork so i'll make you a copy when we sound good... and it had fastER times on it... and she was like, is it because there's fastER times on it? (she saw that i wrote faster times on a post it)... i was like no, i'm not doing that anymore... but i really was... and she was like, well even if you did i want to hear it... and im like no, i'll let you hear it once we make a better one. and then we got into this whole stupid fight about how I'M lame for not showing her my tape. and then she said she would show me too... shes being so lame, i wanted it to be a surprise but shes been fucking up lots of things, and then she tells me about all the things she's done for me etc etc etc... and i tell her i appreciate it each time... well this is LAME. at school i finished all my hw so i could go to the banner but then i coudlnt find a ride, but it was no big deal because i've seen them quite a few times... i wanted to get out of the house and check out the other bands.
i have so much to study for but i'm just telling myself that im done with my hw... and i have to make lyrics and do tae bo... i hate that song that goes... she listens to mozart while she does tae bo...
i ate taco bell today... i got the mexican pizza... and it wasnt good. but what my sister got was good.
and for my art project... i'm doing a charcoal self portrait, there are some charteristics that are similar to mine, but it doesnt look like me... she looks purto rican... or shakira or something... but my mood is sad lonely or depressed (because i wanted to use grey scheems [sp]) well i dont know what i want to do for the background... maybe all the things that stress me out like school work grades mom sister... i wanted to draw people having a singalong in the background or something... but... thats a happy thought. i dont want it to seem like it was depressing, or i wanted to have hands but then it would look like i was being raped... i dont know... then i was thinking of the rain, but i like the rain... the boxes and squares... and then i was like nope, not going to work... so then some time suggests some tribal tattoo patterns because she knows i want to get a tattoo, how thoughtful haha... and some other girl tells me to do feet. i dont want that. nope, i dont want it.
-QUOTE OF THE DAY FROM MOM-
"Don't let your teachers know that you're in a band or they'll lose respect for you and look down upon you."
-lame sister
ok, so after lessons, im bike to quikcheck to get something to drink... and i see these kinda cute boys there, i dont know, ugh, i have nooooooooooo people skill what so ever, they are skateboarding and i want to say hi to them without looking like a dork... but... i just endup going in and not saying anything... first of all, i didnt look so good, i looked like a big black dildo (with my coat). and you couldnt tell i was a girl... but... i just really should have talked to them. i'm really bad at flirting with SOME people... i dont know its weird, i'm also bad at realationships... i have become antisocial... in a way... i sometimes think about the embarasing moments when i went out with colin or just stupid times i act like a retard or how immature i can be sometimes and i want to stab myself, and sometimes i cant think of things to talk about because its really hard hah... so yeah... thats why things weren't working out. AND today i give carson back his sketch book and he really liked my page... i wanted to talk to him more, he seemed really happy, maybe it was the drugs, i cant tell but im lame so whatever... why am i bringing myself down so much?! well, he was really phyched about my page.
i told my sister about the band im in, its not so good yet but its pretty good considering we only had one pratice. and she knows we taped it but she wanted to listen to it and i said not yet, its horrible, and i dont know what im signing because i was just improvising... and i just sound like a dork so i'll make you a copy when we sound good... and it had fastER times on it... and she was like, is it because there's fastER times on it? (she saw that i wrote faster times on a post it)... i was like no, i'm not doing that anymore... but i really was... and she was like, well even if you did i want to hear it... and im like no, i'll let you hear it once we make a better one. and then we got into this whole stupid fight about how I'M lame for not showing her my tape. and then she said she would show me too... shes being so lame, i wanted it to be a surprise but shes been fucking up lots of things, and then she tells me about all the things she's done for me etc etc etc... and i tell her i appreciate it each time... well this is LAME. at school i finished all my hw so i could go to the banner but then i coudlnt find a ride, but it was no big deal because i've seen them quite a few times... i wanted to get out of the house and check out the other bands.
i have so much to study for but i'm just telling myself that im done with my hw... and i have to make lyrics and do tae bo... i hate that song that goes... she listens to mozart while she does tae bo...
i ate taco bell today... i got the mexican pizza... and it wasnt good. but what my sister got was good.
and for my art project... i'm doing a charcoal self portrait, there are some charteristics that are similar to mine, but it doesnt look like me... she looks purto rican... or shakira or something... but my mood is sad lonely or depressed (because i wanted to use grey scheems [sp]) well i dont know what i want to do for the background... maybe all the things that stress me out like school work grades mom sister... i wanted to draw people having a singalong in the background or something... but... thats a happy thought. i dont want it to seem like it was depressing, or i wanted to have hands but then it would look like i was being raped... i dont know... then i was thinking of the rain, but i like the rain... the boxes and squares... and then i was like nope, not going to work... so then some time suggests some tribal tattoo patterns because she knows i want to get a tattoo, how thoughtful haha... and some other girl tells me to do feet. i dont want that. nope, i dont want it.
-QUOTE OF THE DAY FROM MOM-
"Don't let your teachers know that you're in a band or they'll lose respect for you and look down upon you."