so yeah. college.
so ive been here for only 9 days and ive already had so many different emotions about it. towards the middle of last week i ended up really depressed. i can honestly say that i hated it here and that i wanted to drop out of college and just go home and work somewhere. the sole reason for me not doing that was so that i wouldnt let my parents down. i worked so hard to get here to make them happy. we can barely afford to send me to jwu, its so expensive here. this year is going to kill them with both me and my sister in school. thats also kind of serving as motivation for me too though. i know that if i do well, a certain amount of my loan is forgiven. i hope to do better in school here than ive ever done, which also gives me motivation to stay drug free. i truly feel that i would have like triple the friends i have now if i werent straight edge. every night people come home laughing all drunk n' shit which is like cool they had a good time. while i sat in the dorm and watched a movie. this past weekend i actually reached out and went out though. im stoked about some of the friends ive made. theres 3 of them i get along with best and i feel like im lucky i found them. matt tara and mary are definitely my favorite people here at jwu. we all get along great. we all have a simliar sense of humor. and last but most definitely not least. we all listen to some of the same music which i thought i would have such a hard time with. on thursday i went to this place called "club ultra" with them. i totally thought it was gonna be lame cuz i had to "dress to impress" and i was convinced i looked like a tool all night especially cuz i wasnt allowed to wear my vans. surprisingly i actually had a good amount of fun that night. the next night we decided to go to a place called babylon. rumor was there was going to be a foam party. what babylon calls foam is just fucked up. there was seriously nothing there. it was bogus. i had to pay a $10 cover charge to get in there for about a half hour just so we could leave and go back to tara and marys dorm. they had some of their friends down from URI that night. we pretty much sat in their kitchen floor and just laughed about the most random shit ever...it was awesome. the next day just happens to be the highlight of my whole 9 days of college. we decided we would go into boston<3 for the day which i was so fucking excited about cuz i actually know that city well. we went with this girl tanya who lives in winthrop and was just going home for the weekend. she ended up calling a friend from home to see if they wanted to hang out when she got back. they were like uhm well im going to taking back sunday...so we find out on the way to boston theres a free taking back sunday show at gov't center. yeah cool. when we get there i find out the receiving end of sirens opened. i love them. it was awesome. we ended up eating at quincy market and heading over to gov't ctr for the show. when we got there i saw maryhelen which was pretty sweet cuz i havent seen her in a wicked long time. then we just enjoyed the show. i took so many fucking pictures. after the show we went and sat on the harbor and looked out at the water. i love it there. then we headed home. as soon as we got back i just went straight to bed i was so exhausted. so sunday ended up being a waste of a day. along with today. i had one class. i went to lunch with matt. and i havent gone anywhere since. who knows what ill do with myself tonight. most likely not much. and thats my epic. finished.done.goodbye