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Intersting 2 weeks Ive been havin....I just feel so pressured by everyone....school work,good grades, and keepin up a good relationship.....it all requires work but everything does but my issuse is that I feel like im the only one trying......everytime I turn around I feel as though when things go wrong (as they always do) its all my fault I cant even begin to explain how long ive felt like this but really everytime I try to talk to anyone about something thats bothering me I feel as if im wrong for saying it and im sooo sooo sooo tired of it......ITS CALLED FREEDOM OF SPEECH....most of the time I dont know why I put up with half the shit or people I do.....I guess its just the type of person I am and I have tryed to change but I see now not much has.....I realized that I cant blame it on anyone but myself to an extent....I give and give and give and I compromise......but when the fuck is it my turn for someone to just DEAL WITH ME.....im just sooooo tired...and it hurts so much.....but this is life...I fear change...and I dont like heartbreak....but I love chaos...I see sometimes I make my own problems and yes I will proudly admit that....im fuckin 17 what do u want.....Im tried to just wipe everything away and I found that I become heartless and cold and I dont care about anything....Maybe its just stress who knows.....now I see why not to long ago I was a cutter....This crapie thing is the only thing helpin me cause I cant write it in a journal I have no privacy in my house....xO