you'll forget me when i'm gone

[xmadnessx]

fuck i feel so confused and lost right now. my dad isnt doing good at all in the hospital and im going out to see him tomorrow. i guess i have prepaired myself for this for a long time now because his health has always been a concern. but now that its happening i dont think i am ready for it at all. and i am really confused with other things right now too. ugh i dunno i am bumming myself out. i just need some hugs and maybe a shoulder to cry on.

this is what i get for wanting more.