maybe an explanation to why i miss you so much

[xmadnessx]

so im starting to realize this huge hole ive dug myself. when you arent in it i feel so alone but when you are with me you are all i see. and when you are gone i just spend that time waiting for you to come back. i know i did it to myself though. i just am so blind sometimes to life outside of you.

i think i need to start filling this hole or climbing out before i bury myself. but im still desperately waiting for you to fall back in with me.

cant do this by myself.

i dunno why i bother with these posts. they probably just makes me seem more pathetic and desperate. sorry.