May 20, 2004 01:11
i have so much inside me that i want to say but i wont to avoid causing more drama. i know i fucked up and i am sorry. i just need to learn to keep my mouth shut. at the end of the day i am the one left feeling stupid, crying, and alone. ive put myself in this position way too many times.
I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you.
i always pick the saddest quotes yet they always speak exactly how i feel. i honestly dont know life outside of her. i feel so stupid for letting it get to that point. i only have myself to blame for all of this. ive pushed aside other things that should have meant more to me. and what do i have to show for it now? nothing really. i just feel super lost right now.
tomorrow i have to find a job. speaking of which... i am going to hellfest. awesome.
sorry this is stupid.