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1. I get all my best ideas in the shower
2. I don't get along with girls well at all.
3. I used to want to be a CIA agent when i was younger.
4. I kinda still do.
5. I've never had a serious relationship
6. Deep down, i'm an angry person and i don't know why.
7. I believe that everything happens for a reason.
8. I'm a hopless romantic always (despite pushing so many away)
9. My expression of anger is silence.
10. I honestly care too much what people think of me.
11. And it hurts when people don't want me in their lives anymore.
12. I laugh at everything, even things that aren't funny. Because thats the only thing you can do sometimes.
13. I spent a year in middle school hardly saying a single word.
14. I would love to study archelogy.
15. I want to travel the world forever.
16. I have a new found obession with tea.
17. And i'm totally still a cookie whore.
18. I love love love art, although many people never see me as artistic.
19. I hate my style. (mostly cause i have none)
20. But i'm perfectly happy and content in jeans and shirt.
21. I contradict myself on many ocassions.
22. In having a choice between two things, i can never pick one
23. I read horoscopes all the time.
24. I believe in more religion than one. I've actually made up my own. I'll call it Maddi-ism. Spread the word.
25. I wish i could have a really good singing voice
26. My favorite instrument is the drums. or anything percussion.
27. I hate the north, i'm a tropics girl at heart.
28. I really want a tatto, but i don't know of what yet.
29. I'm really affectionate and i love body contact. ( but not in some weird way..)
30. I love to laugh. and have really wonderful conversations.
31. I spend most of my weekends at home and alone.
32. I live to read. Books the only thing keeping me going sometimes.
33. I love to sit home on rainy sundays and watch good moives. I love moive watching.
34. I want a family someday. But i will never drive a minivan. Ever.
35. I'm in love with "the barkers" on mtv. i don't know why.. but i am.
36. Food is the greatest thing ever. EAT EVERYONE EAT!
37.Never once in my whole life have i ever liked school.
38. I have no idea what i really want to do with my life.
39. Which scares the shit out of me.
40. I want to be honestly, genuinely happy.
41. Music feeds my soul.
42. I have to idea why i made this list.
43. but its probably because i'm horrible at expressing what i truely feel.
44. and i'm hoping one day someone will understand that, and love me anyway.
45. I'll write some more later. Good night.