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Never in my life did i think i could hate myself more than i do now. i am hurting so bad and screaming for someone to listen and nobody does. i am lifeless and lost. i want to give up completely on everything and go. im tired of being told im selfish, immature, dramatic when i talk about things. i am the most selfless person and this time i need something about me. my problems are killing me completely and just because you think they are not important doesnt mean they are something worth dealing with. i know people are so much worse than me but dammit i am in so much pain too. i am screaming for something to just listen. i just tried talking to my roommate and she just sits there. with a blank look on her face wondering when i'll shut up so she can watch tv. no feedback, no encouragement, nothing. i scare myself. im tired of relying on hurting myself to take away the pain. i need someone.