Social Life
I just realized a good chuck of my social life was with the two friends who turned their backs on me and now I am left with a huge amount of nothing to do over break. I hate how shy I am. Social anxiety sucks and let me tell you this slap to my...whatever is affected...does not help in the slightest with my paranoia that no one wants me around to begin with. I have other people who are potential friends now who I like a lot but am scared to actually become really close with. We've all seen what happens when I get close to people.The choose others, they betray me, they lie, they lave, they fuck me over and I am left with less than square one rotten away from underneath my feet. My heart is lost. My trust is broken. I am honestly just going through the motions so no one will know just how much it actually hurts to life, to work through each day like this Knowing that no one wants me. Why try, why fucking try?