NEWBORN
i feel like im emerging from a cold place. winter maybe?
maybe time is not such a bad thing after all.
i feel like im changing so quickly. ive grown a lot the past couple of months. i used to be so stessed about everything. and i feel relaxed now. maybe its becouse im 18 now, or maybe its that i know in getting into chicago? whatever, i just feel like ive finally gotten back control of my life, mom and dad dont bother me much anymore, and when they ARE being rude about my sexuality, i ignore it, i want to prove to them that i dont hate them, and that i like spending time with them, (just not ALL the time) i really want to get that piont across to my mom, so i invited he to see wiked with me. just her and me.
ive also lost lots of my bitterness, and i think its for the better for now at least. how am i not bitter?
well,
im not mad at tim at all anymore, im not mad at him at all. infact id like to be friends with him again.
rebirth.... it comes when you least expect it too. i can almost smell the spring air.
i guess the biggest thing i realized is,
you will never be happy untill you learn how to forgive.