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i cant help my feeling for you and i wish i could seeing i have a fucking boyfriend... i cant help the fact that i still love you more then i ever have... i dont want to be with you i just want you back.. i know it doesnt make sense..... FUCK i just need someone to listen and i need to tell you everything that im feeling but i know i cant... icant tell you how i feel because then it would change us.. i kneo you still love me because of the little stuid things you say to me... they dont mean much but to me it just shows you still care... is there anything there? is there what there use to be there?
i love mike but i also love you and its not fair because i cant break mikes haert by telling how i feel... i cant tell you how i feel because then youd stop talking to me... and its not easy...
FUCK
every fucking night i lay in bed and think about you and me.. and then i look at me and mike... and im just not inlove with him but i want to be.... i want to be so bad... i dont know what to do anymore... i just wish i knew what to do... i cant ruin someone life if i dont know for sure.. i know you still care.. like i said but i cant tell you that i would care... or be happy... why cant i just love the person that loves me more then anything... why cant i just feel the same why i felt about mike that i did a year ago... why am i so fucked?
HELP?!
mike keeps asking whats wrong... and the fact is that im just not happy anymore... i love you but im not inlove with you... and id ont want to break your heart.. but i dont want to be unhappy anymore... i just wish i could back to dec 16th of 2005 and say no i wont go out with you becasue then i would just be unhappy and not have to break hearts or lead people on... and id be free and happy... i just dont know anymore... i cant think straight...
and i dont know why im even writing cause noone reading this anymore... noone cares anymore... noone knows what im dealing with and how i feel... noone but me can fucking fix this and i dont want to... i want to be happy with both mike and that other person... and only about 2 of you know who im even talking about and youre prolly going laura you know how he is... and really i know how he is... and i want that i dont want a boyfriend who i can take over all the time... sometimes is nice... but id like to be told no once in a while... and mike cant do that for me.... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i love mike but i also love you and its not fair because i cant break mikes haert by telling how i feel... i cant tell you how i feel because then youd stop talking to me... and its not easy...
FUCK
every fucking night i lay in bed and think about you and me.. and then i look at me and mike... and im just not inlove with him but i want to be.... i want to be so bad... i dont know what to do anymore... i just wish i knew what to do... i cant ruin someone life if i dont know for sure.. i know you still care.. like i said but i cant tell you that i would care... or be happy... why cant i just love the person that loves me more then anything... why cant i just feel the same why i felt about mike that i did a year ago... why am i so fucked?
HELP?!
mike keeps asking whats wrong... and the fact is that im just not happy anymore... i love you but im not inlove with you... and id ont want to break your heart.. but i dont want to be unhappy anymore... i just wish i could back to dec 16th of 2005 and say no i wont go out with you becasue then i would just be unhappy and not have to break hearts or lead people on... and id be free and happy... i just dont know anymore... i cant think straight...
and i dont know why im even writing cause noone reading this anymore... noone cares anymore... noone knows what im dealing with and how i feel... noone but me can fucking fix this and i dont want to... i want to be happy with both mike and that other person... and only about 2 of you know who im even talking about and youre prolly going laura you know how he is... and really i know how he is... and i want that i dont want a boyfriend who i can take over all the time... sometimes is nice... but id like to be told no once in a while... and mike cant do that for me.... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh