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so im sitting here listening to johnny cash and i dont know im very depressed... i wish i knew what makes people the way they are.. i wish i knew why iw as the way i am... but i dont, my toe nail is really sharp and i keep scraching myself but yet i dont learn.. i wish my boyfriend whould love me and care about what i say and do.. but he doesnt.. he doesnt give a shit what i do or say.. i could slit my wrist right now and bleed all over everything and hed just look at me with that look he gives me and leave.. he doesnt make any sense... alkfhalkcnaljfd
thats all iw ant to say because im so about to cry if i type anymore.. look at that im crying wow im stupid i should at least by now be use to being ingored, every boyfriend i get ingores me... so its nothing new.. i wish i lived a simple happy life.. thats all i ever want in my life is to be happy... but it looks like i will never be... and no i dont want you to sit here and make it seem like im trying to get people to feel bad for me cause im dont this is how i feel and if you dont like it then stop reading.. cause really i dont give a shit... look he got his keys out that means now hes going to look at me now and say.. well i have to go now and pretend like nothing ever happen and pretend hes not ingoreing me or treating me different ever since ryan left... god if i get treated so wonderfully when my exs are over maybe have them come oer all the time.... so yeah out.
thats all iw ant to say because im so about to cry if i type anymore.. look at that im crying wow im stupid i should at least by now be use to being ingored, every boyfriend i get ingores me... so its nothing new.. i wish i lived a simple happy life.. thats all i ever want in my life is to be happy... but it looks like i will never be... and no i dont want you to sit here and make it seem like im trying to get people to feel bad for me cause im dont this is how i feel and if you dont like it then stop reading.. cause really i dont give a shit... look he got his keys out that means now hes going to look at me now and say.. well i have to go now and pretend like nothing ever happen and pretend hes not ingoreing me or treating me different ever since ryan left... god if i get treated so wonderfully when my exs are over maybe have them come oer all the time.... so yeah out.