I Suck
How much can one person hate themselves? I feel like I'm completely over-reacting. It hasn't even been two weeks. Not even two and I feel like this? Ahhh! How could I be so stupid? Sooo stupid. One because I should never have gotten involved in the first place. Two because I should have told him earlier. Three because I let myself get this involved. I mean, god. It's been less than two weeks. But so much has happened in that short amount of time, you know? You go from an awkard voicemail to a date (that lasts ten hours) to hanging out every day to sleeping at his house. From barely even kissing the first night to having that be all you want to do. From not knowing each other to him buying me something when he's at a concert with his friends, which means he's thinking about me, to calling each other to not returning phone calls. I felt like I could just walk away from this. Be like Well, it's been a nice week and a half. You made me really happy for...ooooh...ten days, but I'll just forget it and forget you. Nice to know you (as I shake his hand and walk away). But I don't think I can. I'm already too wrecked. God, I suck.