i dk...
i really dont kno wats going on anymore... things are all confusing.... someone thinks im mad at them bc they called me and my phone hung up and wen they tried to call back i didn't answer.... first off... my phone is always being gay and it drops calls.. and it flashes extended network and wen it does that... it means wen someone calls my phone doesn't ring... so it looks like im ignoring ur call... and then its kinda hard... wen i can't call u back bc ur not allowed to have phone calls that late.. and plus ur not even allowed on the phone.. mmm okaaaay yeaaaa...
ive been kinda jus blowing pplz off at skewl.. not anyones fault... im jus in my own lil world.. and im not worrying bout anyone or anything right now.. and how u may think that im jus being a bitch... or that u may think i dont like u anymore.. like i jus walk passed u in the hallway dont say anything.. dont smile or anything.. its not u.. ppl... im jus in the lil world like i sed.... ive been going through alot of things... hurting really bad inside.. and my way of dealing with it... is to shut everyone off... i cry every nite b4 i go to sleep wishing i wasn't here.. or jus wishing mark was here and i could cry on his shoulder... u may see me crack a smile... or even let out a few chuckles... but its all fake.... i hide everything thats hurting me...
and by doing that.. im hurting pplz... like brandon.. he means everything to me... tammy and anthony u dont understand.... its not like that anymore.. me and him dont have anything between us.. its jus that hes been there for the past 6 months and no matter wat hes going to be a part of me.. and right now.. hes helping me with alot of shit.. that i can't handle by myself... anyways.. im hurting him by taking some shit out on him.. and arguing with him.... he shouldn;t have to deal with me like thatr.. wen its something and someone else doing and causing all this drama...
me and darrius dont talk anymore.. it used to be him calling me all the time.. and me calling him and we jus talked bout anything and everything... he would call jus to say hi... or how was ur game.. jus little things but they meant alot and now thats gone.. and i dont kno if its bc of brandon.... or jasmine...prolly both.. or jus mainly brandon...
tyler pissed me off today.. i was trying to ask him if he could take me to skewl tomorrow... at like 1030 bc there is FCAT and i dont really have to be there til then.. bc all i would be doing for 2 and a half hours is sitting in the portables doin nothing... and he got this big attitude with me like he didn't care and didn't even let me get anything in.. so i sed fuck it and left it alone...
and then theres black man.. i dont kno wat the heck his deal is... wen hes over a tylers.. hes alot bout me.. and all this shit.. and always talks bout how much he used to like me and how much he wanted to go out with me..and then says i'd drop michelle over u and all this... and i was like then why dont u do it.. and guess wat??? HES STILL WITH MICHELLE... i heard something like he's falling for her and shes the type of girl or the girl that hes going to marry gay.. and now i can't even like look at him its weird... saturday nite he called me over there talking bout whyd u leave blah blah blah.... anyways i ended up going back over there and he didn't say anything to me.. laid in the back of the truck and then got pissed and went inside? i dk wat the heck his prob is.. but it needs to stop...
i dont knoe im jus sticking to myself again like i sed.. no need for anyone or anything right now... im doing fine.. and im a big girl! later *kelli*
ive been kinda jus blowing pplz off at skewl.. not anyones fault... im jus in my own lil world.. and im not worrying bout anyone or anything right now.. and how u may think that im jus being a bitch... or that u may think i dont like u anymore.. like i jus walk passed u in the hallway dont say anything.. dont smile or anything.. its not u.. ppl... im jus in the lil world like i sed.... ive been going through alot of things... hurting really bad inside.. and my way of dealing with it... is to shut everyone off... i cry every nite b4 i go to sleep wishing i wasn't here.. or jus wishing mark was here and i could cry on his shoulder... u may see me crack a smile... or even let out a few chuckles... but its all fake.... i hide everything thats hurting me...
and by doing that.. im hurting pplz... like brandon.. he means everything to me... tammy and anthony u dont understand.... its not like that anymore.. me and him dont have anything between us.. its jus that hes been there for the past 6 months and no matter wat hes going to be a part of me.. and right now.. hes helping me with alot of shit.. that i can't handle by myself... anyways.. im hurting him by taking some shit out on him.. and arguing with him.... he shouldn;t have to deal with me like thatr.. wen its something and someone else doing and causing all this drama...
me and darrius dont talk anymore.. it used to be him calling me all the time.. and me calling him and we jus talked bout anything and everything... he would call jus to say hi... or how was ur game.. jus little things but they meant alot and now thats gone.. and i dont kno if its bc of brandon.... or jasmine...prolly both.. or jus mainly brandon...
tyler pissed me off today.. i was trying to ask him if he could take me to skewl tomorrow... at like 1030 bc there is FCAT and i dont really have to be there til then.. bc all i would be doing for 2 and a half hours is sitting in the portables doin nothing... and he got this big attitude with me like he didn't care and didn't even let me get anything in.. so i sed fuck it and left it alone...
and then theres black man.. i dont kno wat the heck his deal is... wen hes over a tylers.. hes alot bout me.. and all this shit.. and always talks bout how much he used to like me and how much he wanted to go out with me..and then says i'd drop michelle over u and all this... and i was like then why dont u do it.. and guess wat??? HES STILL WITH MICHELLE... i heard something like he's falling for her and shes the type of girl or the girl that hes going to marry gay.. and now i can't even like look at him its weird... saturday nite he called me over there talking bout whyd u leave blah blah blah.... anyways i ended up going back over there and he didn't say anything to me.. laid in the back of the truck and then got pissed and went inside? i dk wat the heck his prob is.. but it needs to stop...
i dont knoe im jus sticking to myself again like i sed.. no need for anyone or anything right now... im doing fine.. and im a big girl! later *kelli*