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I think I have too many thoughts to update this on a regular basis. Nothing really exciting happens so I never have anything that's really worth mentioning. Plus no one reads this because a) I don't have friends in real life b) I don't even have friends on the internet.
Last night I carved pumpkins with Cody's family. We used those template things and all I can say is you either need A LOT of time or just more patience than I was willing to put into it. Then we went to Derrick's party and I basically spent all of it in a closet with Hannah and Rachel talking about the ex-boys. It was depressing and just made me realize how much I do still miss Nick. I feel really bad because I have Cody..and I can't hand myself completely to him. More of me is with Nick still than I like to admit. I know I loved him. To the extent of what I know that words mean and considering how much I cared and DO CARE...I do. I feel horrible.
I'm so fucked up.
