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" One two three,
Counting out the signs we see
The tall buildings
Fading in the distance
Only dots on a map
Four five six
The two of us a perfect fit
You’re all mine all mine
And all I can say
Is you blow me away
Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me,
Yeah you picked me"
Today was stupid. My parents and I were going to go to Ross Park Mall, but that didn't happen. Instead we went and got decorations for my party on Saturday. Which while I mentioned that..I don't think anyone is really coming. I think it'll be lame and I'll just hate myself more. So we went to Hermitage and I bought a pair of skinny black/gray kind of colored jeans from AE and we bought Matt a T-shirt and a polo. I also got a "How-to" draw fantasy characters book at Pat Catan's. I'm pretty excited but I don't get it until my birthday :[
I actually know most everything that I am getting. Matt got me two shirts that I picked out on Threadless. My parents bought me one too. Then my Aunt DiDi bought me a pretty bracelet that I picked out at her jewelry party. My parents also bought me the drawing book and told me I'm probably not getting texting. They think it is unfair since Matthew doesn't have a phone. Even though he said to me early "I don't see what the big deal is. I only have like one friend that has a cellphone and who cares?" He's nice.
Nick called earlier to see "how I felt" because of the things said last night. I told him I don't know how you could expect anyone to feel alright when someone says such hurtful things. I haven't heard from him since. He apologized later last night. He said that he isn't human anymore. I don't think I am anymore either. My mom got mad at me in the car earlier. She kept talking about my birthday and all I responded with was "okay." "sure." "i guess."
"Can't you act the least bit excited?" she said. No not really. I'm turning 17 without much going on in my life. No I really can't.