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After being single for 3 and a half years, I finally have a boyfriend. And he's wonderful. I've never been treated so well. I'm terrified I'm going to mess this up. I mean, I've dated the last few years, lightly, but nothing ever goes past 2 weeks. We're both pretty scared. We've been hurt really bad in the past. I just really hope and pray this lasts.
Last night at dinner we prayed. It was beautiful.
I am so happy when I'm with him.
Tonight everyone was yelling at me. Ais was pissing my parents off, so, they yelled at me. My sister didn't like her room being messy when her friend came home with her; well, even though she had done the vast majority of the mess, I got hell for it. From her AND my mom. Aislin is so defiant lately. I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. He's supposed to come over, but I haven't heard from him yet and when I tried to call it went straight to voicemail. I almost slipped and said that three letter phrase when he last called. I think he may have caught it. But he didn't say anything. So, maybe not.
Ugh. I hope I didn't mess up already.
Well, I better get offline so he can get through....if he calls.
Last night at dinner we prayed. It was beautiful.
I am so happy when I'm with him.
Tonight everyone was yelling at me. Ais was pissing my parents off, so, they yelled at me. My sister didn't like her room being messy when her friend came home with her; well, even though she had done the vast majority of the mess, I got hell for it. From her AND my mom. Aislin is so defiant lately. I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. He's supposed to come over, but I haven't heard from him yet and when I tried to call it went straight to voicemail. I almost slipped and said that three letter phrase when he last called. I think he may have caught it. But he didn't say anything. So, maybe not.
Ugh. I hope I didn't mess up already.
Well, I better get offline so he can get through....if he calls.