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all the entries and comments about god and religion lately have got me thinking. ... i have mixed feelings about it all. i tend to identify with everyone's beliefs. i agree that it seems like god is merely an idea...an image that people have created to keep themselves from feeling alone in the world. everyone wants to feel like the have a purpose in life, and certainly no one wants to think that after they die, life itself will be no more. ...in that sense, god, and heaven and hell seem like ideal solutions to the questions we have about the 'why' and the 'how'. and yet, all of our lives, most of us are brought up being told what to believe. no one that i know of went to church willingly when they were younger. we were brought up to think that there is a god, and that if you belive, and pray and ask him to forgive your sins, you'll go to heaven and there wont BE an end to be scared of. but it's hard to believe in something that you're only told about...something that you can't see and that no one can tell you that they've seen. who's to say that it isn't simply fate and choices that get you where you are? and then other times, when something good happens in your life...something that seems like it's too incredible for simple luck, you know that there has to be someone or something out there watching over us. a force that gives us birth...life...joy. and believing that there is something out there gives you a purpose...gets you thorough hard times. but, as someone else brought up, if there is a god, and he is this great savior, how can we say that just because someone was confused about what they belived, and didnt pray every night to ask him for forgiveness, that he would let that person go to hell or purgatory? that doesnt sound like much of a savior to me.
...so overall, i believe that "god" does exist. ...but i dont necissarily think that he is the whole image we have built up. who's to say that there's only one god, or that we are right about everything we think about him. i think that there has to be some sort of force guiding us, whether that be the god or a god. and does he have to be a person...in a person's form? i believe someone is out there watching over us, and i like to think that there is some sort of heaven...somewhere we go for eternity after death. there are so many miracles, let alone life, that i dont think that can be ignored. maybe, by what you believe, you choose where you're headed. maybe not. i dont know. i wish i was one of those die hard believers. i really do. i want to find comfort like that...but just going to church and hearing people tell me what is right and what isnt, isnt helping me to truely find it. i pray...to whoever is listening. and i desperately want there to be a god. but that doesnt mean that ive found believe. hope isnt belief and i think some people confuse that. whatever is out there, may it come...and i believe that whoever is watching over us will take care of us. that's as much comfort as anything brings.
another opinion of mine ...i think that as a whole, people our age...even people older than us dont know quite what to believe. sure, you have the occasional die hard believer who has never doubted the existance of god or the words of the bible. but most of us are at least somewhat confused. just be reading the comments, i dont feel alone...because i know that other people doubt. and doubt is such an ugly word, but i suppose that's what it is. but no one needs to be worried...because sure, we're all confused, but we're confused together. even if you dont believe in god, you arent alone because everyone has everyone else. there are billions of people on the earth...nobody's really alone. so whatever you believe...believe it. fate is fate...and if there's a god, then he controls fate. what happens happens.
...just some confusing thoughts of mine. if you dont agree with me, obviously that's fine...no offense meant to anyone or what they believe.
((and this song is just about perfect for the topic.))
Believe it or not everyone have things that they hide
Believe it or not everyone keep most things inside
Believe it or not everyone believe in something above
Believe it or not everyone need to feel loved, feel loved
But we don't and we won't
Until we figure out
Could someone deliver us
And send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up
'Cause faith is so hard to find
But you don't and you won't
Until we figure out
I've seen it a lot every time the world turns upside down
Believe it or not most of us feel like we're losing ground
Believe it or not everyone hate admitting fear
Believe it or not most of us wanna know why we're here, why we're here
But we don't and we won't
Until we figure out
Could someone deliver us
And send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up
'Cause faith is so hard to find
Someone deliver us
Just send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up
'Cause faith is so hard to find
But you don't and you won't
Until we figure out
Most of us have nothing to complain about
Most of us have things we could live without
Everyone need advice on how to get along
You don't, we won't
Until we figure out
Believe it or not everyone...
Believe it or not everyone have things that they hide
Believe it or not everyone keep most things inside
Believe it or not everyone believe in something above
Believe it or not everyone need to feel loved, feel loved
But we don't and we won't
Until we figure out
Could someone deliver us
And send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up
'Cause faith is so hard to find
Someone deliver us
And send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up
'Cause faith is so hard to find
But you don't and you won't
Until we figure out
You don't and you won't
Until we figure out
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