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I was going to make another typical post where I basically complain about how shitty I've felt lately but then two things stopped me
1) I'm too lazy to find the link now but there's that video of the 13-year-old guy set to Breathe Me by Sia and just youtube "Whats going on" and cry because he cries and it's just an eye opener. More so than some stupid expensive guest motivational speaker RHHS SGA digs up for us.
which led me to
2) I look at last nights rehearsal (afdajifo;ajk violin hickey, away) and
even though in the end it makes me sad because I wish that it could be like that more often and theres that feeling of crashing down to reality....
it was still 2.5 hours of really good rehearsaness. I spent more time doubled over laughing than I did playing. And for those 2.5 hours I really forgot about everything that has happened and how much angst there is and I could just laugh. So much. About the dumbest things. And say things without thinking and slap myself and drop my bow and almost delete all the data on my phone BECAUSE I COULD JUST FORGET and pretend like this summer and the past few months never happened and you never changed and I never tried to change. I want to do that again but trolololo HYRO haitus after Sunday's concert.
1) I'm too lazy to find the link now but there's that video of the 13-year-old guy set to Breathe Me by Sia and just youtube "Whats going on" and cry because he cries and it's just an eye opener. More so than some stupid expensive guest motivational speaker RHHS SGA digs up for us.
which led me to
2) I look at last nights rehearsal (afdajifo;ajk violin hickey, away) and
even though in the end it makes me sad because I wish that it could be like that more often and theres that feeling of crashing down to reality....
it was still 2.5 hours of really good rehearsaness. I spent more time doubled over laughing than I did playing. And for those 2.5 hours I really forgot about everything that has happened and how much angst there is and I could just laugh. So much. About the dumbest things. And say things without thinking and slap myself and drop my bow and almost delete all the data on my phone BECAUSE I COULD JUST FORGET and pretend like this summer and the past few months never happened and you never changed and I never tried to change. I want to do that again but trolololo HYRO haitus after Sunday's concert.