and the sidewalks are watching me think about you.
My head hurts. I can't breath. My eyes are bloodshot. I'm frozen.
Matt and I are on a break. I love him, but I cannot deal with his mother. She wants to sit down and have a talk with me, because she feels uncomfortable around me because she doens't know me because I'm shy. And she doesn't like that I never go to his house because I don't like her. Hmm. Maybe the reason why I don't like her is because she says things to Matt like, "the only reason why you're still hanging out with her is because you're scared to break up with her because it would look bad because your ex is comming back into town". Those were her exact words. And she doesn't the the "idea" of me. Hahah. Stupid bitch. She wants to sit me down, and then humiliate me, and basically tell me that she wishes that her son was still dating his ex girlfriend, and then expect everything to be fine, and less awkward then it is now? Hahahahaha. Funny. I am 17 years old, and this isn't a serious relationship that me and Matt are in. I am dating Matt and his mother right now, when all I want is Matt. Honestly. She needs to butt the fuck out. And I can't handle that. My dating Matt should be something that makes me happy, and smiley, and warm and fuzzy and excited. Not depressed and stressed and awkward and embarrassed. So, I told him that we're on a break. And the last time I've cried this hard was when I got suspended from school because I got caught doing drugs, and my life was then over. No guy should make me cry like this. This isn't worth it, so it's over for now.
Ugh. Kill me. I'm going out and getting smashed tonight.
Matt and I are on a break. I love him, but I cannot deal with his mother. She wants to sit down and have a talk with me, because she feels uncomfortable around me because she doens't know me because I'm shy. And she doesn't like that I never go to his house because I don't like her. Hmm. Maybe the reason why I don't like her is because she says things to Matt like, "the only reason why you're still hanging out with her is because you're scared to break up with her because it would look bad because your ex is comming back into town". Those were her exact words. And she doesn't the the "idea" of me. Hahah. Stupid bitch. She wants to sit me down, and then humiliate me, and basically tell me that she wishes that her son was still dating his ex girlfriend, and then expect everything to be fine, and less awkward then it is now? Hahahahaha. Funny. I am 17 years old, and this isn't a serious relationship that me and Matt are in. I am dating Matt and his mother right now, when all I want is Matt. Honestly. She needs to butt the fuck out. And I can't handle that. My dating Matt should be something that makes me happy, and smiley, and warm and fuzzy and excited. Not depressed and stressed and awkward and embarrassed. So, I told him that we're on a break. And the last time I've cried this hard was when I got suspended from school because I got caught doing drugs, and my life was then over. No guy should make me cry like this. This isn't worth it, so it's over for now.
Ugh. Kill me. I'm going out and getting smashed tonight.