looking back.

[xlovelessveinsx]

what was i thinking? i am seriously the lamest person i know.
i havent used this thing in almost a year. wow. that
is a really long time. i guess i grew out of it.
there is a lot i have grown distant of.
things that simply dont matter to me anymore.
i went back and deleted entries in which the photos
werent there anymore.
seriously some of these entries make me want to kick my
own ass.
i hate myself. i am such a douchebag really.
yet there is so much.. that i really miss.
ex boyfriends.. and when i used to be happy.
it makes me wish that i was still that naive.
and did what everyone told me to do.
maybe then. i would be happier with who i am.

maybe i will use this more.
i might feel more sane.

<3