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I saw myself in a mirror.
Reflections of horror. I shrugged away, but again my eyes turned to that sordid thing therein reflected; I vomited on the floor; I wanted to grapple my head and smash it, smash it smash it
Smash it into that mirror, till pieces of glass from my deformed face protrude, cutting far into my cranium, oh the pain; it must be destroyed, it must be destroyed, with knives I conduct amateur liposuction; this terrible thing soon to be undone, unearthed from behind the rancid cocoon - or rather, over-earthed, buried, such a vile disgusting beast, cut, cut, dig into the flesh, kilogram by kilogram extracted, shifted, blood squirting everywhere-
I saw myself in a mirror, and I shudder at the merest thought of that ugly face that meet my glance therein. Desperation I felt, like running away and hiding under a blanket, hiding in a bed, hiding somewhere far away from it all, from reality, in dream-- soothing, soothing; panicking from the knowledge of the bestial body inside which I am trapped- I cut myself free
Reflections of horror. I shrugged away, but again my eyes turned to that sordid thing therein reflected; I vomited on the floor; I wanted to grapple my head and smash it, smash it smash it
Smash it into that mirror, till pieces of glass from my deformed face protrude, cutting far into my cranium, oh the pain; it must be destroyed, it must be destroyed, with knives I conduct amateur liposuction; this terrible thing soon to be undone, unearthed from behind the rancid cocoon - or rather, over-earthed, buried, such a vile disgusting beast, cut, cut, dig into the flesh, kilogram by kilogram extracted, shifted, blood squirting everywhere-
I saw myself in a mirror, and I shudder at the merest thought of that ugly face that meet my glance therein. Desperation I felt, like running away and hiding under a blanket, hiding in a bed, hiding somewhere far away from it all, from reality, in dream-- soothing, soothing; panicking from the knowledge of the bestial body inside which I am trapped- I cut myself free