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today i got called down to the guidance office and when i walked in, there was a lady there from child protection services wanting to talk to me about my dad. so we talked a little. then she said she was going to talk to my sister and brother and what not and ask them questions about mine and my dad's relationship and what's happened in the past. i don't know how that went over, and i don't know what's going to happen. she just said there isn't much she can do and that she will get back to me. she is going to speak to my dad about it all either tonight or tomorrow. geeze. thank god i lock all my windows and doors now. this whole family situation is killing me, and i would talk to my friends about it all if i knew what to say, but i don't. it's all just in the air right now.

i haven't been able to sleep too well the past week or two, and i keep having these panic/anxiety attacks. one minute i'll be hanging out fine and everything, then i get WICKED hot to the point i just hope i pass out or something, and my hands and knees start shaking and my palms feel like like they are getting sweaty. it sucks and i don't know how to stop them. i'll be worried about them for like 5 minutes then i don't give a shit anymore. maybe i should start caring more about this stuff and taking it more seriously. meh.

next week i go to see give up the ghost and nfg. it's going to so much fun. i'm going with cheryl and marielle :)