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do you ever have the feeling that something is wrong with you personally? it seems like almost everyone that was my friend at the beginning of the year is slowly slipping away from me. it makes me sad. i'm not going to mention any names, but i have a feeling that they know who they are. i have this feeling that by the end of the year i won't have some of the friends that i had. and a few of them are some of my closest friends. i haven't changed. i know that much. but i mean is something wrong with me? do people not like to be around me? there's constant times where i've found myself alone and the people that used to include me in everything are off gathered with other people. i know that they say this happens in high school but i don't want it to. i don't want to lose some of the people i feel like i'm losing. especially one of them. i know they aren't intentionally doing this, unless they are. who knows. i don't. i know what you're thinking "quit your whining sara". but i'm sorry i have to pour my heart out somewhere right? i know i've been hanging out with some of my other friends, but lately no one has wanted to hang out with me. i'm still the same sara they became friends with years ago. so maybe they changed. maybe it isn't me, but yet i still feel like it is. hmmmm...

part of me wants to leave and start of new at my dad's, but a big part of me doesn't. very few things are keeping me here. most of me wants to leave.

sara. <3.

for those of you who just began reading my journal or have been reading it since the beginning. thats a little taste of my daily life. it isn't as happy as it seems. but i am okay so don't worry about me. :).