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I've been tired alot, lately... And I need a new icon to replace the Jack and Sally one... I'm sick of it and the extra purple annoys me...
I'm out of money, this is a huge issue for me, considering I have no job right now and have to start paying rent in July... I hate the fact that we need money... But right now, I can't even afford to fill the whole tank of gas in the studpid minivan (that's like 60$... no way). I can afford it, I just won't be able to afford any other more important things if I do...
I feel like shit... My mom isn't even paying for what she used to pay anymore... Like gas, hair dye and school shit... I can't start paying for all of that without considering a loan from the bank or something... Which is most likely inevitable, but ya know, I'd like to wait as long as I can before having to go do so... I don't wunna be a cashier in a stupid grocery store... but if its the only thing that'll work out for me at the moment, I'll take it. I don't really have a choice, anyway.
I've been needing to talk to people, lately... But when I do so, they're either dealing with something much worse than me, or not interested... or not really willing or able to help out... and most of the time, out of reach. Its fine, I understand completely... Sometimes, I'd just rather stay alone and think by myself for hours... But some nights I need to talk to others... I'm not sure what about... I'm not sure if it would all make much sense... But I have too many thoughts in my head and no way to get them out, cuz even writing isn't cutting it.
The thing is, I don't have time to do anything. Which stresses me out. Which demotivates me. Which is not good. At all.
I have about 3-4 weeks left of class... Exams. Projects. Crap. Crap. Crap. Plus the radio station job. Plus another job. This is going to be a fuckin' insane month-ish... Fuck.
I need a hug. A huge one.
Now I have to go to class, seeing as I finished my radio show an hour and a half ago... Woke up at 4:30, only to go to yoga class at 9:45 and go get my hair cut and dyed at 2.
NO SLEEPIES FOR JESSIE!
Fuck. I'm really tired...
I <3 you.
So long....
I'm out of money, this is a huge issue for me, considering I have no job right now and have to start paying rent in July... I hate the fact that we need money... But right now, I can't even afford to fill the whole tank of gas in the studpid minivan (that's like 60$... no way). I can afford it, I just won't be able to afford any other more important things if I do...
I feel like shit... My mom isn't even paying for what she used to pay anymore... Like gas, hair dye and school shit... I can't start paying for all of that without considering a loan from the bank or something... Which is most likely inevitable, but ya know, I'd like to wait as long as I can before having to go do so... I don't wunna be a cashier in a stupid grocery store... but if its the only thing that'll work out for me at the moment, I'll take it. I don't really have a choice, anyway.
I've been needing to talk to people, lately... But when I do so, they're either dealing with something much worse than me, or not interested... or not really willing or able to help out... and most of the time, out of reach. Its fine, I understand completely... Sometimes, I'd just rather stay alone and think by myself for hours... But some nights I need to talk to others... I'm not sure what about... I'm not sure if it would all make much sense... But I have too many thoughts in my head and no way to get them out, cuz even writing isn't cutting it.
The thing is, I don't have time to do anything. Which stresses me out. Which demotivates me. Which is not good. At all.
I have about 3-4 weeks left of class... Exams. Projects. Crap. Crap. Crap. Plus the radio station job. Plus another job. This is going to be a fuckin' insane month-ish... Fuck.
I need a hug. A huge one.
Now I have to go to class, seeing as I finished my radio show an hour and a half ago... Woke up at 4:30, only to go to yoga class at 9:45 and go get my hair cut and dyed at 2.
NO SLEEPIES FOR JESSIE!
Fuck. I'm really tired...
I <3 you.
So long....