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so it's officially half way through my senior year, but it still hasn't hit me yet...
everything has been going okay, i mean i can't complain. i've been accepted into three of my colleges, but none of my top choices yet. my classes have been going. nothing really more to say about them. i just want school to be over with. i want to be in a college environment and i want to start a new slate.
i think when i go to college i want to start over. i'm not saying i want to change my personality and who i am, but i want to change what i think of myself and i want to be an improved me. i can't wait to have that opportunity. but i already know how much i am going to miss this environment and all the people in my life here. at my field hockey banquet i wanted to cry because the one thing i have been involved in for the past 7 years was finally over and i know i am not going to be playing in college. plus that was the one thing that me and elena were able to spend most of our time together with. i'm going to miss her next year. not to mention all the other people i have become close with over the past 4 years... as much as i hate this place i'm going to miss it next year.
i think i desperately need this semester to go by quickly so that i can start to move on with my life.
p.s. i think i need to break away from my sole group of friends. i feel like im way to dependant of them. although i have friends outside of that group that i am really close with, i think i need to move a little bit further from them still. find more friends that are away from them. being in the same group all the time creates way too much drama and i need a break from that.
everything has been going okay, i mean i can't complain. i've been accepted into three of my colleges, but none of my top choices yet. my classes have been going. nothing really more to say about them. i just want school to be over with. i want to be in a college environment and i want to start a new slate.
i think when i go to college i want to start over. i'm not saying i want to change my personality and who i am, but i want to change what i think of myself and i want to be an improved me. i can't wait to have that opportunity. but i already know how much i am going to miss this environment and all the people in my life here. at my field hockey banquet i wanted to cry because the one thing i have been involved in for the past 7 years was finally over and i know i am not going to be playing in college. plus that was the one thing that me and elena were able to spend most of our time together with. i'm going to miss her next year. not to mention all the other people i have become close with over the past 4 years... as much as i hate this place i'm going to miss it next year.
i think i desperately need this semester to go by quickly so that i can start to move on with my life.
p.s. i think i need to break away from my sole group of friends. i feel like im way to dependant of them. although i have friends outside of that group that i am really close with, i think i need to move a little bit further from them still. find more friends that are away from them. being in the same group all the time creates way too much drama and i need a break from that.