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To whomever this may concern,
everything is a lie, i came to the realization that he doesn't care one bit that i am a worthless piece of garbage. who calls everyone house to see if they are home and then when their parents pick up and i am too embarrased and a shamed that i can't even leave my name and everybody else takes the time to explain to their parents that i am some sry excuse for a girl who wanted to speak to her supposed school friends and maybe make phonie plans to hang out coz we all know that no one is going to hang out with me especially if your a guy. and hey why not add to her misery and not bother to talk to her or pretend to be her friend and let her grovel for your approval well my my my i have learnt the lesson. and most of the time i am just a stand in friend but ten minutes later i will be droppped because that person someone better to hang out with, why i feel so horrible all the time and i am not going to be stepped on if anyone going to do it its going to be me i will step on myself.why was i so naive? " i hate talking on the phone i hate writing i am not a good writer i am not allowed to hang out i have a very early crufue!" well those my be all true but at least you can go in to detail more than that and reveal the true reason why everyone hates talking to me on the phone or writing email or cards or something. life is tooo to to cruel i should not live it. i am not worthy of life god gave life to me knowing that it was a horrible life and that i would take it away some day so he didn't spend anytime or love creating it, thats why it sucks. i am just a pathetic loser there is no way in hell i could make anyone happy. not that all the guys how have asked me out could do better than to ask me but all the guys i have like dropped me like a hot kettel and let my boiling hot love[water] spill out on to the floor and become cold. then when nothing works out i would rather be a friend than a foe, and then i say would you like to go to the movie with me and a friend so just in case they think i am going to try something alone with them [which i am not going i don't have that guts or self esteem to.] i invite a friend and they still decline coz its easier to step on someone rather then to clean them off the floor. i am not a stalker, just because i asked for his address on his birthday in 10th grade and he can't remeber that he wrote it down himself and i actually tried to prove it to myself, but prove myself of what, nothing i am not going to gain anything from proving i am not a stalker it will just make me more of a stalker,the lie i live starts at 7:25 a.m. every morning and ends at 2:00 p.m. every week day and even sometimes on the computer welll i not a rug any more i am now a person everything is changing for me, but this statment will always stay true forever life sucks and I don'thave a crush on nick anymore , nevermore.!!!!!
everything is a lie, i came to the realization that he doesn't care one bit that i am a worthless piece of garbage. who calls everyone house to see if they are home and then when their parents pick up and i am too embarrased and a shamed that i can't even leave my name and everybody else takes the time to explain to their parents that i am some sry excuse for a girl who wanted to speak to her supposed school friends and maybe make phonie plans to hang out coz we all know that no one is going to hang out with me especially if your a guy. and hey why not add to her misery and not bother to talk to her or pretend to be her friend and let her grovel for your approval well my my my i have learnt the lesson. and most of the time i am just a stand in friend but ten minutes later i will be droppped because that person someone better to hang out with, why i feel so horrible all the time and i am not going to be stepped on if anyone going to do it its going to be me i will step on myself.why was i so naive? " i hate talking on the phone i hate writing i am not a good writer i am not allowed to hang out i have a very early crufue!" well those my be all true but at least you can go in to detail more than that and reveal the true reason why everyone hates talking to me on the phone or writing email or cards or something. life is tooo to to cruel i should not live it. i am not worthy of life god gave life to me knowing that it was a horrible life and that i would take it away some day so he didn't spend anytime or love creating it, thats why it sucks. i am just a pathetic loser there is no way in hell i could make anyone happy. not that all the guys how have asked me out could do better than to ask me but all the guys i have like dropped me like a hot kettel and let my boiling hot love[water] spill out on to the floor and become cold. then when nothing works out i would rather be a friend than a foe, and then i say would you like to go to the movie with me and a friend so just in case they think i am going to try something alone with them [which i am not going i don't have that guts or self esteem to.] i invite a friend and they still decline coz its easier to step on someone rather then to clean them off the floor. i am not a stalker, just because i asked for his address on his birthday in 10th grade and he can't remeber that he wrote it down himself and i actually tried to prove it to myself, but prove myself of what, nothing i am not going to gain anything from proving i am not a stalker it will just make me more of a stalker,the lie i live starts at 7:25 a.m. every morning and ends at 2:00 p.m. every week day and even sometimes on the computer welll i not a rug any more i am now a person everything is changing for me, but this statment will always stay true forever life sucks and I don'thave a crush on nick anymore , nevermore.!!!!!