worst week ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today at 12am i had a long discussion with my boyfriend and we broke up.... i don't know how i am going to deal i love him soooooooooooooooooo much... i don't think anyone understands i saw the best future together... like musiq soulchild talks about love i pictured that love with us. i truly thought we would be together thru college!....the good thing is i can study more....can you believe his mother felt bad for me...he talked to his friends about this and they didn't know what to do...there will never be another...and you can't force love i can only pray that you is ready to love and i will be around to witness this change and it will be with me ..... i don't want anyone else.... i don't think i could be with anyone else. He is the one person that felt all the love i have to give and he will always have the biggest chunk of my heart.like we are supposed to be friends now but thats going to fade and we won't talk and thats the 3rd worst thing that could happen. I put sooo much into him all my emotions everything....but thats what i get for doing that and knowing thats i shouldn't have....this is the most depressing thing i could ever ever ever ever go thru right now.... and this time i can't hide my feelings.... not this time.....Dear lord thank you soooo much for steven, you gave me the opputinity to express this much love.. which most people don't get to do at all in their life time..thank you soo much. Dear lord,please please..... give me the strenght to get thru this untill he is ready or until i can stop crying....dear lord please give me the forsight to such things the next time around.