Fuck my life sideways with a chainsaw......I DONT WANT THIS TO BE GOODBYE I NEVER WANT GOODBYE...

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Well it's been a while since I have updated.....the last week of my life..has been the worst. I have been through so much, you couldnt even understand.... I have been accused of things, wrong things...and the bad part is the one and only person I expected to listen to me...wont even speak to me...I did not do these things...I dont even care about the mess I could get into because of all that crap, the only thing I care about is her, I love jenna so much...I know she has found out some news about herself also...I wanted to be the one she could talk to about it...I just want to be there for her, but I'm not going to get that. The one and only thing that means THE WORLD to me I cannot have, it's just been stripped away from me like that....there's nothing I can do but hope and pray, and give it some time....I hope you read this, no matter what happens, those memories I have with you, I cherish them more than anything in this world you are my world....I havent eaten in 5 days...I can't eat...but no matter what, I love you..you will always be my Pooker...I just cant even stand thinking that I may never talk to you again...I have a broken heart right now...ther's only one way to fix it....but I dont feel good, I'm going to bed just remember, like I said once we were friends but we ended up being forever, to me you're forever I would do anything........I'm going to go -Pooker.

Always and Forever
-Pookerbear.