second floor
i have turned nocturnal
and solipsistic
but that is hardly new.
the sinking feeling only comes from the looks of others.
so i try not to see them
(though i can feel their skeptic gazing and it burns if i think about it).
11 27 minus 1 49
i finally recovered weeks' worth of mail today
reading so many graduation notices in succession is liable to cause heart attacks
i am going to tell the surgeon general
he should put labels on mailboxes.
or she.
among the various suicidal thought inducing media
hid a fragment of a former self
one that i had all but forgotten completely.
from mom, along with prescriptions, a letter
so simple and seemingly trivial
i had to fight so hard to keep from crying in the campus center lobby
until the rain could cover me up on my cell phone speaking quickly and adoringly into a voicemail box
for one ruth.
what kind of person would i be without you, mom?
(best not to think about the atom bomb.)
and solipsistic
but that is hardly new.
the sinking feeling only comes from the looks of others.
so i try not to see them
(though i can feel their skeptic gazing and it burns if i think about it).
11 27 minus 1 49
i finally recovered weeks' worth of mail today
reading so many graduation notices in succession is liable to cause heart attacks
i am going to tell the surgeon general
he should put labels on mailboxes.
or she.
among the various suicidal thought inducing media
hid a fragment of a former self
one that i had all but forgotten completely.
from mom, along with prescriptions, a letter
so simple and seemingly trivial
i had to fight so hard to keep from crying in the campus center lobby
until the rain could cover me up on my cell phone speaking quickly and adoringly into a voicemail box
for one ruth.
what kind of person would i be without you, mom?
(best not to think about the atom bomb.)