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UHHH..grr. ok so yes. today started out yummy. i waited for micheal. and he came over and sat next to me and was like "wanna try hanging out with nate?" and i said sure. so i went with him to his friends. and nate was all like "wow you came over here!!" lol. cuz i was talkin to him the day before. so ya i hung out with them till the bell rang.
ya and i loooove the way mike looks at me. its so cute. cuz i'll just be like standing there. and he'll look at me and all i like..see is his blue eyes!! omg i love them =P
ok so..ya. at lunch i was gonna go hang out with him. but i went with sharleene to the lunch room and i waited for her to get her food. and when we were walking out..i walked by nate and mike. and nate was like "look who it is" and...once again..mike looked at me..lol. omg everytime i see him i SMILE. i love it!! sooo ya. then i sat with sharleene. and mike and nate came back out. and i told sharleene i'd go over there after they ate. soooo she went over to mike and was like "nancy wants to know if she can come over here?" and i went over there and he was like "you don't have to ask to come over here you know" and i was like "i know i didnt say that" lol..so ya then i hung out with him and them all.
and like...im WICKED shy and quiet and it takes a little time before i open up. you know? i mean..it'd be easier..if like him and i just hung out a lil bit each day..with no one else. sooo then its easier for me to open up. you know? but i dont like..wanna make him do stuff..my name isnt autumn. im not gonna demand him to do things. so ya i really felt like an idiot..at lunch.
then 3rd block..i all of a sudden got sad...like depressed and wicked tired and i couldnt figure out why. then shark break. i just sat by myself. and was like..sad. and sharleene came over and was liek "whats wrong" and i lied and said nothing. and she knew something was wrong. so she was like "im gonna get mike over here" so she went after him..and. i just left and went to class early. and 4th block pissed the living crap out of me. and i wrote mike a note and was gonna give it to him when i was walkin to the bus...buuuut i went to fast and he wasn't there. sooo ya
like what do i do? should i just tell him that..if like him and i hung out together alone..a little bit i'd open up quicker. and i'd feel more comfortable being around him and his friends? i dunno. so why im sad is...like. im scared that he will break up with me cuz im so quiet. you know??? =(
i've said this time after time...for like..all the bfs i've had. but really. mike is the best thing that has EVER happened to me. and i dont want to screw it up. im really really happy to be with him. cuz everytime i see his smiling face. i smile/
and my sis almost ruined it for me yesterday and i am really mad at her. mike...is her ex. and before i went out with him. i talked to her to make sure it was ok. you know? and like..she said it was cuz she was like "i dont care, its not like he broke up with me" so she said it was fine. and then yesterday she goes up to him and flips out..calling him a sicko cuz he's dating me. shes being a 2 faced bitch. and i am mad. every fuckin boyfriend i get...she has to be a bitch to and i cant freakin stand it. im sick of it.
i dont know why she does it...could it be jealousy? even though shes gone out with like half the damn guys at school? she breaks up with a guy after like 3 weeks and goes to the next..and like..my mom thinks shes a freakin angel and she doesnt do anything wrong. fuckin please..hmm she goes out and gets drunk..shes smoked weed. and shes not a freakin virgin!! what the hell! im sick of this.
anyways..im going. lets leave it at this...
i la la love micheal andrew dupuis!!
ya and i loooove the way mike looks at me. its so cute. cuz i'll just be like standing there. and he'll look at me and all i like..see is his blue eyes!! omg i love them =P
ok so..ya. at lunch i was gonna go hang out with him. but i went with sharleene to the lunch room and i waited for her to get her food. and when we were walking out..i walked by nate and mike. and nate was like "look who it is" and...once again..mike looked at me..lol. omg everytime i see him i SMILE. i love it!! sooo ya. then i sat with sharleene. and mike and nate came back out. and i told sharleene i'd go over there after they ate. soooo she went over to mike and was like "nancy wants to know if she can come over here?" and i went over there and he was like "you don't have to ask to come over here you know" and i was like "i know i didnt say that" lol..so ya then i hung out with him and them all.
and like...im WICKED shy and quiet and it takes a little time before i open up. you know? i mean..it'd be easier..if like him and i just hung out a lil bit each day..with no one else. sooo then its easier for me to open up. you know? but i dont like..wanna make him do stuff..my name isnt autumn. im not gonna demand him to do things. so ya i really felt like an idiot..at lunch.
then 3rd block..i all of a sudden got sad...like depressed and wicked tired and i couldnt figure out why. then shark break. i just sat by myself. and was like..sad. and sharleene came over and was liek "whats wrong" and i lied and said nothing. and she knew something was wrong. so she was like "im gonna get mike over here" so she went after him..and. i just left and went to class early. and 4th block pissed the living crap out of me. and i wrote mike a note and was gonna give it to him when i was walkin to the bus...buuuut i went to fast and he wasn't there. sooo ya
like what do i do? should i just tell him that..if like him and i hung out together alone..a little bit i'd open up quicker. and i'd feel more comfortable being around him and his friends? i dunno. so why im sad is...like. im scared that he will break up with me cuz im so quiet. you know??? =(
i've said this time after time...for like..all the bfs i've had. but really. mike is the best thing that has EVER happened to me. and i dont want to screw it up. im really really happy to be with him. cuz everytime i see his smiling face. i smile/
and my sis almost ruined it for me yesterday and i am really mad at her. mike...is her ex. and before i went out with him. i talked to her to make sure it was ok. you know? and like..she said it was cuz she was like "i dont care, its not like he broke up with me" so she said it was fine. and then yesterday she goes up to him and flips out..calling him a sicko cuz he's dating me. shes being a 2 faced bitch. and i am mad. every fuckin boyfriend i get...she has to be a bitch to and i cant freakin stand it. im sick of it.
i dont know why she does it...could it be jealousy? even though shes gone out with like half the damn guys at school? she breaks up with a guy after like 3 weeks and goes to the next..and like..my mom thinks shes a freakin angel and she doesnt do anything wrong. fuckin please..hmm she goes out and gets drunk..shes smoked weed. and shes not a freakin virgin!! what the hell! im sick of this.
anyways..im going. lets leave it at this...
i la la love micheal andrew dupuis!!