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ahh i dont even know where to begin.. its been awhile since i updated.. im sorry to ne one who replied to my post(s) in the past month n which i didnt reply to .. ive just had such an abundance of mixed emotions n feelings and alotta fucked up shit just going down ryte now* well ill start off on a good note that i got my second waitressing job back cos they needed sumone so they called me back n asked me if i work like a couple hours a night only 2 or 3 days a week so i said ya.. on the other hand at my other job where i bus my boss has been a complete asshole to me n hasnt put me hardly at all so i get like no hours.. or maybe 10 hours a week if im LUCKY* anywho on another note my mom is a fuckin cunt and she decided shes gonna take me for piss tests n if i fail them i cant drive her car ne more.. which i do see her point n a way but... she should know my deal w smoking herb and that no matter wha its never gonna completely stop.. it may cease sumwha or maybe even alot but fully stop? i highly doubt* and so we got in a huge arguement over that and i was allb itchin her out sayin well in 5 months when i turn 18 im gonna refuse to go for them and she cant do ne thing about it.. and it kinda ended there... ive been gettin fucked up alot tho lately.. drinkin more than ever.. killin a bottle a henny every friday and saturday nyte ( and thats just cos i dont have school the following day ) im scared as to what the summer miute bring, also i started hanging w less again.. this grl i used to despise and she despised me (long story) lets just say that when i was like 14 once at this club i sold her bunk acid lol and since than we hated ea other but its rather odd how we meet back up and are chillen like more than ever ryte now .. i thynk her ghetttoness is taking sum kinda toll on me *ack* haha n ne wayz i chill w alotta her ppl now which for one this one dude blue.. hes jamaicain and was born in kingston hes like my main man tho i could talk to him about ne thing and for hours to and he'd listen well he (obviously) smokes alot of weed and he hussles (along w his roommate dre) coke and "D"
and they both give it to me for free cos... well i dunno y exactly id ont ask for it but how am i supposed to say no when one throws an 8ball at me n says here my present to u.. like every weekend too~! and than theres tha H ;/ i been tryin to stay away from that shit cos ive seen it tear up and ruin too many lives but its jus so hard like i said when its given to u like its nuthin.. but i try not to be around as much when that is.. for obvious reasons..... and ive been pretty successful in doing so for the most part but i know it wont be my last brush w it... as much as id like it too
and now my moms been makin me go to NAA meeting which is ridiculous and i hate going and blaaah so much more but the bell is gonna ring soon and so im running outta time to cont. my telling u all about my current sitch so for all u who read or dont read my journal for that matter this entry is TBC (2Bcont.) lol
and they both give it to me for free cos... well i dunno y exactly id ont ask for it but how am i supposed to say no when one throws an 8ball at me n says here my present to u.. like every weekend too~! and than theres tha H ;/ i been tryin to stay away from that shit cos ive seen it tear up and ruin too many lives but its jus so hard like i said when its given to u like its nuthin.. but i try not to be around as much when that is.. for obvious reasons..... and ive been pretty successful in doing so for the most part but i know it wont be my last brush w it... as much as id like it too
and now my moms been makin me go to NAA meeting which is ridiculous and i hate going and blaaah so much more but the bell is gonna ring soon and so im running outta time to cont. my telling u all about my current sitch so for all u who read or dont read my journal for that matter this entry is TBC (2Bcont.) lol