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Life is contradicting, advocating, teasing, great for a minute, and painful for an hour.
I don't know what's up from what's down anymore and I keep getting confused easily.
I also keep things on my mind that maybe I could control?
It's hard for me to stay content or happy but I'm discovering what I need and what I don't.
Each day seems to get harder but somehow, progressively things seem to be getting better, one second it seems as if I'm going to get out of my job and the next it seems impossible.
I don't know what's going on at all in my life, I'm trying to take control but right when I do things either go my way or the opposite.
Maybe I should just giveup. Sometimes I think things would be easier if I just started somewhere new with all new people.
Sometimes I think I would love that.meh.
I don't know what's up from what's down anymore and I keep getting confused easily.
I also keep things on my mind that maybe I could control?
It's hard for me to stay content or happy but I'm discovering what I need and what I don't.
Each day seems to get harder but somehow, progressively things seem to be getting better, one second it seems as if I'm going to get out of my job and the next it seems impossible.
I don't know what's going on at all in my life, I'm trying to take control but right when I do things either go my way or the opposite.
Maybe I should just giveup. Sometimes I think things would be easier if I just started somewhere new with all new people.
Sometimes I think I would love that.meh.