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ok my mom is pissing me off.
i am so sick of her demanding things EVERY second..it pisses me off so much..she doesn't know when to keep her goddamn mouth shut..i can be like just sitting there not bothering anyone..and she will bitch forever about nothing. I can like breathe wrong and she will freak out, and im so sick of it. i should not have to live in fear of her..and thats what's happening..i need to feel more independent from her..that way i wont feel she is so powerful. and i need to get the confidence to not let her have the ability to make me feel bad about myself. and i am SO damn sick of looking after her children..for god fucking sake kayla is going to be thirteen..I had to babysit at thirteen for her ..so she should fucking grow up and take a little responsibility..i sure as hell had to...and jaime never even gets asked to look after anyone..it's automatically me..and i hate it. even if jaime would say no..they should respect me enough to not automatically assume im staying home with their brats. and i dont pity my mom one bit..if she thinks she has it tough with all the kids and her job..then that's her fault.she did it to herself. i feel no pity. she needs to learn when to lay off because she picked the fucking wrong time to give me shit..i cannot handle one more thing. or im going to explode all over again..she needs to just shut her goddamn mouth and keep AWAY from me. and yes, im being a bitch right now..and i dont care and i dont feel sorry. she has pissed me off quite enough..icant fucking stand her bullshit right now..i H A T E her. i don't care what happens to her..and i don't appreciate her.
i am so sick of her demanding things EVERY second..it pisses me off so much..she doesn't know when to keep her goddamn mouth shut..i can be like just sitting there not bothering anyone..and she will bitch forever about nothing. I can like breathe wrong and she will freak out, and im so sick of it. i should not have to live in fear of her..and thats what's happening..i need to feel more independent from her..that way i wont feel she is so powerful. and i need to get the confidence to not let her have the ability to make me feel bad about myself. and i am SO damn sick of looking after her children..for god fucking sake kayla is going to be thirteen..I had to babysit at thirteen for her ..so she should fucking grow up and take a little responsibility..i sure as hell had to...and jaime never even gets asked to look after anyone..it's automatically me..and i hate it. even if jaime would say no..they should respect me enough to not automatically assume im staying home with their brats. and i dont pity my mom one bit..if she thinks she has it tough with all the kids and her job..then that's her fault.she did it to herself. i feel no pity. she needs to learn when to lay off because she picked the fucking wrong time to give me shit..i cannot handle one more thing. or im going to explode all over again..she needs to just shut her goddamn mouth and keep AWAY from me. and yes, im being a bitch right now..and i dont care and i dont feel sorry. she has pissed me off quite enough..icant fucking stand her bullshit right now..i H A T E her. i don't care what happens to her..and i don't appreciate her.