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its pretty much one thing after the other. im starting to get sick of it. i want so many things to go my way. i want my life from 2 months ago. i miss everything.
i feel like ive been cast aside. like i never mattered. like i was just a test and now that its done, and lessons have been learned, its time to move on. i wish i knew the truth to everything. i wish people wouldnt say things just so make someone feel better, or purposely get their hopes up. i should know better. i've heard all of it before, and i fell for all of it all over again. whatever. i hope i learned my lesson this time.
i just feel really hurt. in so many ways. i feel like i cant trust so many people. and im like, so stressed over school idk. i just feel really alone. i just wish to be in someones arms and have them telling me its all gonna be ok.
i guess its all just the fact that i miss ryan. yeah we're friends, but idk, thats still too hard. and just seeing what he does. idk. whatever this is vague.
im in denial so bad.
i feel like ive been cast aside. like i never mattered. like i was just a test and now that its done, and lessons have been learned, its time to move on. i wish i knew the truth to everything. i wish people wouldnt say things just so make someone feel better, or purposely get their hopes up. i should know better. i've heard all of it before, and i fell for all of it all over again. whatever. i hope i learned my lesson this time.
i just feel really hurt. in so many ways. i feel like i cant trust so many people. and im like, so stressed over school idk. i just feel really alone. i just wish to be in someones arms and have them telling me its all gonna be ok.
i guess its all just the fact that i miss ryan. yeah we're friends, but idk, thats still too hard. and just seeing what he does. idk. whatever this is vague.
im in denial so bad.