RIP MOMMY!!!
Havent updated in a while...
lets see...
August 17th..the day my mom died...so it has been 2 years..i cant believe it was that long its crazy.I really miss her and i just want her back. The family is soo screwed up now, like after she died it seemed like everyone came closer to like make everything stable and stuff but like now everything is a mess. It seems like my dad cant live without having a girlfriend and it just makes me think that me and my sister arent good enough for him. Bernie who was his fiance went back to england to sort stuff out and then sent an email not even a phone call and said that she wasnt comin back. She made up a lot of dumb excuses for it too. I thought that like everything was goin to be good when she came and like after they got married and stuff, my dad was soo happy and i really liked seeing him that way, i got used to soo many different things, i mean i had a lil sister for a while and then like everything just got takin away again and it just sucks. We get used to something then its just gone again, im not liking it at all. I just wish could just be me sam and my dad. It worked soo good like rite after my mom died and like we were living my dad didnt need another girl. But now all he wants is one. I just want him to just stop with the girls and get his life together, he just got a job and hes like goin to get the money to finish the house up soon and i just want that all done before he worrys about anything else. I really need to go to my moms grave ive only been there once since they got the grave stone in and that was on my moms bday, me,sam,rach,kev and my dad went, we bought her flowers and stuff. But i havent been there since and it makes me sad!
I want to give everyone some advice...treasure each and every day with the ones you love..cuz if i hadnt done that with my mom and i wasnt like awesome friends with her than i think i would be much worse now...Im happy that i had such a wonderful relationship with my mom...we had some awesome memories...are family trips were the great...We traveled soo much...and i loved it i havent been like anywhere in a long time and it really makes me sad...we used to go to california and las vegas and i havent been there since my aunt and uncle moved here...I miss goin campin i have not gone since last summer and we used to go soo much...I just miss my mom soo much...Its like she doesnt get to see all my first like she didnt get to see my first day at highschool...or seeing me cheer at my first football game...or goin to homecoming...she never got to meet all my new awesome friends...she never got to meet Kev...i just wish that she was still here...i kno she really didnt miss anything cuz she watched from up above but it truly is not the same...
Rest in Peace mommy...7/15/57-8/17/03!! I love you!!!
Well...I start school soon...not all that happy about it..im happy that i get to see all my friend i didnt see over the summer...but i just dont like school...Im a Junior how exciting lol...
Well im out...
HAPPY BIRHTDAY MARY!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITT!!!
<3 LIZ
I love you Kev!!
Rach thank you for everything!! I love you!!
Sam you are an great sister always remember that!!!
lets see...
August 17th..the day my mom died...so it has been 2 years..i cant believe it was that long its crazy.I really miss her and i just want her back. The family is soo screwed up now, like after she died it seemed like everyone came closer to like make everything stable and stuff but like now everything is a mess. It seems like my dad cant live without having a girlfriend and it just makes me think that me and my sister arent good enough for him. Bernie who was his fiance went back to england to sort stuff out and then sent an email not even a phone call and said that she wasnt comin back. She made up a lot of dumb excuses for it too. I thought that like everything was goin to be good when she came and like after they got married and stuff, my dad was soo happy and i really liked seeing him that way, i got used to soo many different things, i mean i had a lil sister for a while and then like everything just got takin away again and it just sucks. We get used to something then its just gone again, im not liking it at all. I just wish could just be me sam and my dad. It worked soo good like rite after my mom died and like we were living my dad didnt need another girl. But now all he wants is one. I just want him to just stop with the girls and get his life together, he just got a job and hes like goin to get the money to finish the house up soon and i just want that all done before he worrys about anything else. I really need to go to my moms grave ive only been there once since they got the grave stone in and that was on my moms bday, me,sam,rach,kev and my dad went, we bought her flowers and stuff. But i havent been there since and it makes me sad!
I want to give everyone some advice...treasure each and every day with the ones you love..cuz if i hadnt done that with my mom and i wasnt like awesome friends with her than i think i would be much worse now...Im happy that i had such a wonderful relationship with my mom...we had some awesome memories...are family trips were the great...We traveled soo much...and i loved it i havent been like anywhere in a long time and it really makes me sad...we used to go to california and las vegas and i havent been there since my aunt and uncle moved here...I miss goin campin i have not gone since last summer and we used to go soo much...I just miss my mom soo much...Its like she doesnt get to see all my first like she didnt get to see my first day at highschool...or seeing me cheer at my first football game...or goin to homecoming...she never got to meet all my new awesome friends...she never got to meet Kev...i just wish that she was still here...i kno she really didnt miss anything cuz she watched from up above but it truly is not the same...
Rest in Peace mommy...7/15/57-8/17/03!! I love you!!!
Well...I start school soon...not all that happy about it..im happy that i get to see all my friend i didnt see over the summer...but i just dont like school...Im a Junior how exciting lol...
Well im out...
HAPPY BIRHTDAY MARY!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITT!!!
<3 LIZ
I love you Kev!!
Rach thank you for everything!! I love you!!
Sam you are an great sister always remember that!!!