Is it okay?
Sometime i just hold in all my emotions and i just wont let them out. I want to cry but i cant. when people talk down to me i cant stand up... not because i am afraid b.c growing up every time i stood up for myself people just laughed even more. So what am i suppose to do? I only find good insults to say back when they walk away. And i am asking is that okay?
Everyone uses me for bad things and plays me on my guilt because I will feel guilty even though people do bad to me. my conscious will feel guilty so i do it so i wont feel bad. Like I am a bad person. I give my love to people and they step all over it. So it made it hard to love those who love me because i end up trusting people less and less. And i am asking is that okay?
Am i going to get better? I hurt too much and i just wanted to let it out. I am tired of being alone and tired of people hurting me and not caring. I know the world is cruel and i know its not fair but is it okay that others get way more than me. I dont have nothing to give and nothing to receive from anyone. I want love,trust, friendship, beauty, brains, ect. but i have none. So is it okay if i am like this?
Will i ever get better? How can i? Someone tell me. I dont how to find my passion in life, especially when people call u unreliable and no has ever put their trust in u to be reliable. when no one believed you could do something. Not even your parents. I mean no one......I ache
Everyone uses me for bad things and plays me on my guilt because I will feel guilty even though people do bad to me. my conscious will feel guilty so i do it so i wont feel bad. Like I am a bad person. I give my love to people and they step all over it. So it made it hard to love those who love me because i end up trusting people less and less. And i am asking is that okay?
Am i going to get better? I hurt too much and i just wanted to let it out. I am tired of being alone and tired of people hurting me and not caring. I know the world is cruel and i know its not fair but is it okay that others get way more than me. I dont have nothing to give and nothing to receive from anyone. I want love,trust, friendship, beauty, brains, ect. but i have none. So is it okay if i am like this?
Will i ever get better? How can i? Someone tell me. I dont how to find my passion in life, especially when people call u unreliable and no has ever put their trust in u to be reliable. when no one believed you could do something. Not even your parents. I mean no one......I ache