Standing In The Dark
Thought i would update on the situation:
well i now realise so what if i choose not to meet my dad it's my own choice and if people think i'm making a mistake then let it be mine to make dont try and stop me from doing what feels right to me!
My mum said that he's coming up to scotland again sometime but letting us all know first and if i wanted to then i could meet him - i already know my answer is no! i have got this far without a dad and i plan to go the rest of my life without one, i dont need him in my life as far as i'm concerned it's just pain from the past that doesn't need digging up!
so i'm happier about the situation now and i feel i've done the best solution i could have and i'm happy with my choice for the first time in ages i've done what i've done for me :D
but if i get all upset and stuff again i plan to listen to the album 'Chariot" by gavin degraw cause it always gets me through the hardest times.....