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It has been months since I've written anything here. Mainly, because my computer was very broken. Now thinking about it, I tend to only make entries when things aren't looking that great...this is one of those entries.
I went to work (Wakefern) yesterday, and my boss was the biggest bitch ever. She has this condescending attitude all day with me. So that got me off to a bad start. After work, I drove right to the GC to meet some people. Matt's mom dies this past week, and yesterday was the wake. I managed to get four people to come to Bayonne with me. It was awful. It was beyond wake sad. I knew so many people and know them well. To see Matt and Ms. Antiz and Tim and Sean like that, broke my heart. Meanwhile, one member went. The staff sent flowers and we're bringing food over tomorrow, but one member went. How shitty and inconsiderate is that?
Now onto today...
The day started out well. I had a million errands to run, most were for me, but naturally, I had to go to the bank and drop something off at my sister's doctor for my mom. I drop off this paper at the doctor and they tell me to stay in case they have questions or to check anything. I told them the paper wasn't for me and moved on. So, did everything else I had to, and then some. Here's where everything went south...
Last week, my mom told me to switch my hours or take tomorrow off, because Jess has a counseling session with my parents and I need to be home for Jackie. Because some how, I became a full-time baby/house sitter. So whatever, then my mom, yesterday, tells me that I didn't need to take the day off because Jackie has twirling after school, so I have a day to do whatever I want with. I called Mike this morning, and said I'd go over to his house tomorrow morning with coffee and we'd end up going back to bed. During this little conversation, he said he'd be off of work early tonight. I said I'd come by tonight...
Jess' doctor called my mom and said she needed to see Jess. Guess who was supposed to take her at like 12:30 tomorrow? Yes, me. I said fine whatever, and figured Mike would understand, plus I could stop by Thursday, probably. But I was pissed about it. All of a sudden, my mom changed her mind, and they'll take Jess to the doctor and to her meeting. I wouldn't have minded taking her to the doctor so much, even though I thought I had a free day, but lately Jess isn't allowed to be home alone. No one tells anyone anything at all, so everything that's going on, is just effecting me, but I don't know what's going on.
So because my mom is angry, because I was supposed to be on Jess watch or whatever the fuck, and me and Mike decided that going there wouldn't be the best idea.
The last two days have just been so hard, and I figured that after the kind of shitty day I had yesterday, I'd be able to spend a great night with Mike, but no.
I miss him, and now I'm emo.
I went to work (Wakefern) yesterday, and my boss was the biggest bitch ever. She has this condescending attitude all day with me. So that got me off to a bad start. After work, I drove right to the GC to meet some people. Matt's mom dies this past week, and yesterday was the wake. I managed to get four people to come to Bayonne with me. It was awful. It was beyond wake sad. I knew so many people and know them well. To see Matt and Ms. Antiz and Tim and Sean like that, broke my heart. Meanwhile, one member went. The staff sent flowers and we're bringing food over tomorrow, but one member went. How shitty and inconsiderate is that?
Now onto today...
The day started out well. I had a million errands to run, most were for me, but naturally, I had to go to the bank and drop something off at my sister's doctor for my mom. I drop off this paper at the doctor and they tell me to stay in case they have questions or to check anything. I told them the paper wasn't for me and moved on. So, did everything else I had to, and then some. Here's where everything went south...
Last week, my mom told me to switch my hours or take tomorrow off, because Jess has a counseling session with my parents and I need to be home for Jackie. Because some how, I became a full-time baby/house sitter. So whatever, then my mom, yesterday, tells me that I didn't need to take the day off because Jackie has twirling after school, so I have a day to do whatever I want with. I called Mike this morning, and said I'd go over to his house tomorrow morning with coffee and we'd end up going back to bed. During this little conversation, he said he'd be off of work early tonight. I said I'd come by tonight...
Jess' doctor called my mom and said she needed to see Jess. Guess who was supposed to take her at like 12:30 tomorrow? Yes, me. I said fine whatever, and figured Mike would understand, plus I could stop by Thursday, probably. But I was pissed about it. All of a sudden, my mom changed her mind, and they'll take Jess to the doctor and to her meeting. I wouldn't have minded taking her to the doctor so much, even though I thought I had a free day, but lately Jess isn't allowed to be home alone. No one tells anyone anything at all, so everything that's going on, is just effecting me, but I don't know what's going on.
So because my mom is angry, because I was supposed to be on Jess watch or whatever the fuck, and me and Mike decided that going there wouldn't be the best idea.
The last two days have just been so hard, and I figured that after the kind of shitty day I had yesterday, I'd be able to spend a great night with Mike, but no.
I miss him, and now I'm emo.