(For once, not about the boyfriend) I want a punching bag for christmas
*This is the last I will ever write here. Those of you who have my new name, please add me asap. Thanks.*
You know what? I truly and honestly cannot understand right now. I feel you've crumpled me up in a ball and thrown me away. You know why? Because the more I talk to you, the less you respond. I love you so dearly that you're family to me but you're never around. I feel abandoned. You promised you never would do such a thing but oh how you have.... I wonder if you even realize how much I've slipped from your life. I've slowly been replaced by everything and anyone else. I used to be important to you just as you're important to me. You... God, I wish you could feel the anger I feel towards you.
I no longer feel the need to protect you from my wounded anger. I feel ignored constantly by you and it makes me bitter. Makes me wonder if you SEE me or if you even consider me an equal anymore. Well, darling, Amy has grown up and since I've done that I feel I no longer matter. I feel I should apologize if any of my words sting you or hurt but I hurt as well and the other part of me says "Good. Hope it torments you." I'm NOT a little girl anymore and now I'm disillusioned with life. I'm disillusioned with you.... *sighs*
Sadly, I find my anger winding down and fizzling to the point I'm exhausted. I wish you'd help remedy this because god damnit I can't do everything on my own.
You know what? I truly and honestly cannot understand right now. I feel you've crumpled me up in a ball and thrown me away. You know why? Because the more I talk to you, the less you respond. I love you so dearly that you're family to me but you're never around. I feel abandoned. You promised you never would do such a thing but oh how you have.... I wonder if you even realize how much I've slipped from your life. I've slowly been replaced by everything and anyone else. I used to be important to you just as you're important to me. You... God, I wish you could feel the anger I feel towards you.
I no longer feel the need to protect you from my wounded anger. I feel ignored constantly by you and it makes me bitter. Makes me wonder if you SEE me or if you even consider me an equal anymore. Well, darling, Amy has grown up and since I've done that I feel I no longer matter. I feel I should apologize if any of my words sting you or hurt but I hurt as well and the other part of me says "Good. Hope it torments you." I'm NOT a little girl anymore and now I'm disillusioned with life. I'm disillusioned with you.... *sighs*
Sadly, I find my anger winding down and fizzling to the point I'm exhausted. I wish you'd help remedy this because god damnit I can't do everything on my own.