"It's been a long hard road without you by my side..."
Well, sometimes I swear that I can go on for just a couple of days.
Today is Josh's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA! We were supposed to go up to Louisville today to celebrate Valentine's Day, because we both have to work tomorrow, which is fine. He was going to pay, and then next week, when I got paid, I was going to take him out to celebrate his birthday. Well, as soon as I get to the gym this morning, Josh calls and tells me that we "HAVE" to go out to eat with his family tonight. Our plans have been made for a while, and I even took off work to do this. So I leave the gym, because I'm too upset to finish my workout. I came home pissed off to dad, and you all can guess what his advice to me was. I know this isn't that big of a deal, but this is the third time this has happend. Something always magically comes up to ruin our plans. Like last night, he was supposed to come over after he got off of work. But, then like an hour before he left work, he text messages me, and says, that he has to go to Dave's house, because his grandpa had something for him (he thought it was the title of his car). Well, then he gets there, and his grandpa wanted to give him his birthday present. But know I'm thinking, couldn't that have just waited till today?
I'm having my doubts. Meanwhile, I won't have a Valentines day present, because him taking me out for dinner was my Valentine's present. So yeah, thats screwed over. Oh well... I swear I can go on.
Recently, someone from my past has come back into my life. I do like him, but I know that I will never be able to do anything about it. He was an awesome person a few years back, and whenever we hung out, nothing ever mattered like it does now. I want to be close friends like we used to be, and I don't want my liking him to get in the way. He's happilly engaged now, and I respect that. I just hope he's happy. I e-mailed him today to ask for his advice. I trust his judgement, so now all I have to do is wait for a response. He's supposed to come home around May, and he owes me that game of pool. He thinks he's going to win, but we will see. I miss him... a lot. We had a lot of great times together.
I just keep telling myself, that everythings going to be okay, and one day, everything will be perfect like it was sophomore year. I'm going to be moving soon, and starting my life. But, my life will never be able to be like sophomore year. My friends are moving, relationships broke apart, and we all have guys or girls now. I wish I knew what I know now back then. But now, all I have are pictures and memories, and those will be enough for me.
Till next time America...
Today is Josh's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA! We were supposed to go up to Louisville today to celebrate Valentine's Day, because we both have to work tomorrow, which is fine. He was going to pay, and then next week, when I got paid, I was going to take him out to celebrate his birthday. Well, as soon as I get to the gym this morning, Josh calls and tells me that we "HAVE" to go out to eat with his family tonight. Our plans have been made for a while, and I even took off work to do this. So I leave the gym, because I'm too upset to finish my workout. I came home pissed off to dad, and you all can guess what his advice to me was. I know this isn't that big of a deal, but this is the third time this has happend. Something always magically comes up to ruin our plans. Like last night, he was supposed to come over after he got off of work. But, then like an hour before he left work, he text messages me, and says, that he has to go to Dave's house, because his grandpa had something for him (he thought it was the title of his car). Well, then he gets there, and his grandpa wanted to give him his birthday present. But know I'm thinking, couldn't that have just waited till today?
I'm having my doubts. Meanwhile, I won't have a Valentines day present, because him taking me out for dinner was my Valentine's present. So yeah, thats screwed over. Oh well... I swear I can go on.
Recently, someone from my past has come back into my life. I do like him, but I know that I will never be able to do anything about it. He was an awesome person a few years back, and whenever we hung out, nothing ever mattered like it does now. I want to be close friends like we used to be, and I don't want my liking him to get in the way. He's happilly engaged now, and I respect that. I just hope he's happy. I e-mailed him today to ask for his advice. I trust his judgement, so now all I have to do is wait for a response. He's supposed to come home around May, and he owes me that game of pool. He thinks he's going to win, but we will see. I miss him... a lot. We had a lot of great times together.
I just keep telling myself, that everythings going to be okay, and one day, everything will be perfect like it was sophomore year. I'm going to be moving soon, and starting my life. But, my life will never be able to be like sophomore year. My friends are moving, relationships broke apart, and we all have guys or girls now. I wish I knew what I know now back then. But now, all I have are pictures and memories, and those will be enough for me.
Till next time America...